LoTs Of ColoUrs In My LiFe

2011-01-04T13:49:00.004+08:00

Hola,
i know its been very long and ages since i last blog.
I'm kinda of more active in my tumblr cause i love the pictures =)
Hee..
Anyways this is my tumblr acc
http://missy-syaheda.tumblr.com/

010111 is definitely a special date for my cuzin and his brother.
Congrats to my cuzin for her engagement
not forgetting his brother, selamat pengatin baru..
It's such a beautiful ceremony

My cousin =) on her engagement day His brother and his new sister in law =)
Prefect couple right?
Me likey

why am i even blogging today?
i guess cause i'm sick and i got nothing to do..
gastric has been a bitch i hate it..totally!
2 days of mc from prcp..
each posting i'll end up taking mc..
horrible men
but what can i do huh? i'm sucha a sickling..
i wish to have a stronger antibody tho..

is it true when you reach the age of 40plus there's a frequent mood swing?
if it is i think my parents are having that..
PMS! hee
their moods are getting unpredictable..
SERIOUSLY!

It's the first day of school for my lil sis..
i wonder how she's doing..
i miss being in school somehow..
i miss wearing uniform in fact as least i dont have to think what to wear everyday.

my prcp is still on going and this is my last lapse of my poly life and thats it..
i'm graduating and will be kissing my diploma
REGISTERED NURSE!
it a huge and heavy responsibility..
What are my plans after this..
I'm gonna get a job, save up and take up my degree or even go for advance diploma..
We'll see how..
But i'm sure i wanna take up degree..

Parents are supportive about this decision and so is my bf..
Told him before dont you dare stop me from studying no matter what..
And he agree, even his mom told him not to stop me =)

me and him,
we actually kind off had a short time out cause we're having problems and we need time to think it through thus we decided to give each other space
which it works =)
giving each other spaces in times of crisis does work sometimes, especially for my case and him..
both of us are hot tempered and strong headed couple
heee..

well nothing much to say now..
toodles =)

2010-10-08T01:06:00.002+08:00

TIME REALLY FLIES FAST, AND SOON ENOUGH MY ATTACHMENT IS STARTING SOON..I'M DONE WITH WORKING AT AIA AND NOW I'M BACK TO MY NURSING CAREER..HAHA..MY RESULT SO FAR IS IMPROVING AND I DO WANNA WORK HARD FOR MY ATTACHMENT TO GET BETTER GPA'S..HMM..WORST COME TO WORSE, MY AIA BOSS WANTS ME BACK IN HIS AGENCY AND SELL INSURANCE TO PPL..HAHAHA..OKAY AT LEAST I SECURE A JOB THERE BUT SELLING INSURANCE IS NOT EASY OKAY! YOU STILL NEED TO SIT FOR EXAMS AND STUFF..COOL SHIT..IT WAS A GOOD EXPOSURE TO WORK THERE AND UNDERSTAND HOW THEY WORK AND THE SYSTEM LIKES..ANYWAYS LOVE AND ME HAD A NEW RIDE, IWASN'T REALLY HPY ABT IT INTIALLY CUZ THE CONDITION WASN'T THAT GD AND THE PAINT WORK THAT THE SHOP DID..BUT OH WELLS..WE ARR GONNA DO SOMETHING ABT IT LTR =) I'M SUCHA A SPOILT BRAT SOMETIMES..HEEE..OKAY I WANNA COOK SOMETHING NOW..HUNGRY!!

2010-09-24T11:55:00.016+08:00

HElllOOOoo!
It's been super long since i blogged..
I had nothing in mind now..
Just let's the pictures i upload tell the stories =)
Enjoy

2010-09-06T01:54:00.004+08:00

nothing is perfect in this world
nothing is stable
up and down do occur
when you're in love always be prepare to get hurt
human ain't perfect..
we have our flaws
some how i did broke into tears cause of you yesterday
after so long i guess i'm really hurt that explains why i ended up crying
i'll still pick myself up and move on
i know i am always strong enough to do that =)
i know you try to make it up
all the wounds will heal one day

I met up with my bebs last friday
so happy to see their faces..
really!
me and jo had M&M finger nails for that day and we're loving it
Gonna plan another outing with them soon
For now examination in progress
but yet nothing is in this brain
i have to depend on my common sense..
ARGH!

2010-09-06T01:52:00.000+08:00

Just The Way You Are"

[Verse 1]
Her eyes, her eyes
make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday (yeahh)

I know, I know
When I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see
But everytime she asks me "Do I look okay?"
I say

[Chorus]
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

[Verse 2]
Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh
she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfects what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
'Cause you know I'll say

[Chorus]
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are

The way you are

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5lO4hEAJHU

2010-08-29T13:45:00.003+08:00

2010-08-28T01:28:00.004+08:00

When life gives you a second chance take it because second chances never come around & its something worth taking.

LOVE can't be defined until you find someone who fits the definition

2010-08-22T13:06:00.004+08:00

WORK is the thing that keep me busy
I'm working double jobs and thank god it's office hour and weekends i had my rest
OR
time to spent with family,friends and him
So far everything is going smoothly..
In my relationship wise with him..
HAHAH..
I'm too use too his anger and shitos that i don't really care anymore
REASON simple
After he cool down and think he'll text me back
OR
I'll try and think of ways to make him feel remorseful..
LOL!
He has problems with EGO so yarh..
I miss vesh =)

Anyways..
Me and him has been fasting everyday without skipping one day =)
Except for me due to women issue i can't fast..
He told that we shall not be like other couples whom can't seems to control their affection till break fast..
We will behave appropiately till the day end..
HAHAHAH!
He suprise me..
Well people change huh?
Went to BUGIS and GEYALNG yesterday..
Meet up with cousin,Kak Long and lil sis first at bugis
Then i went over to geylang to meet him and his family and break fast at Arnold
The waiting time is damn long and everyone of us is freaking hungry =/
Talk and joke around with his dad..
Well they we're amaze that we keep laughing at each other jokes..
Oh well..
I can easily adapt to my surroundings =)
And that me..
I can talk to anyone!
LOL
I ask him if we're wearing the same Raya outfit this year and he say YES
Since both me and his family are wearing different color this year
He insisted on buying a new cloth and send to the tailor to be sow
He love those sweet and eye catchy color..
HAHA..
So cute =)
Well now we just have to wait for the cloth to be sow to outfit =)

Almost whole day i was at GEYLANG!!
After him and his family leave i meet up with kak long and husband and lil sis
And their GEPICA friends =)
I finally had ayam percit! Aww..
I love it so much!!

But in relationship wise all i can say i'll just with the flow for now
I won't put expectation on it cause i might be hurt
And today I'm gonna continue studying for exams =))

2010-08-18T00:27:00.004+08:00

i want ice-cream!!
=(

2010-08-17T23:44:00.005+08:00

A pen for me to scribble anything i want any time =)

This is the bear he gets for me and also a pen

Happy 21st anny..
Suppose to be yesterday but sorry i was working and you're busy with practical
Thanks B for the gifts..
I feel like a happy girl and child today =)
Hee..
Muaks!
I know it's complicated now..
I know you are trying your best to win this heart..
It takes time i guess..
But honestly i have yet to move on and open up
I told all guys whom wanna get to know me more about this and i did apologise
And yeah they said it's okay and understand..
So ladies don't think i am a BITCH
Cause i ain't, I spoke the truth and its them whom decide..
He even know i am now friends with some guys..
Anyway
I passed my sociology SAQ
Just need to study a bit more for MCQ =)
I'm having an interview tomorrow..
Hopefully it goes well
I am crazy
I'm already working part-time and now i'm trying to get a full time admin job..
Haha..
Plus for now i need to study for exams..
Okay i'm crazy..
Time management baybeh..
Might need to cut down on my social life..
Hahah =)
Oh well..

2010-08-16T14:13:00.003+08:00

My lips are having cold sores =(
It's painful and it gonna take weeks to recover
Well..
Home is still home except for the men in the house who love to find fault with me
What can i do or say anyway..
Things soured and i don't wanna tell mom about the quarrel i had with him
It can only hurt my mom more too and make the whole thing worst..
I tried to be like how you want me to be
But how about you?
Have you tried understanding me and how i feel?
I'm a child and you're suppose to be supporting me well
But i guess somethings don't turn out that way..
I work to provide myself and my needs..
You work too and use your own money as stop asking mine..
When you're angry you always hope mishap occur upon me..
What kind of dad you are..
Whatever it is you're still my dad
No matter how much i hate you..
No matter how much i wanna beat you back like how you did to me
I can't
I can never be that person
I can never be up to your stage..
Cause i'm me..
Have you ever thought that what you said silently kills me
Had it ever occur that some things between you and mom it's about you
Stop blaming me and tell me I'm the root of your're quarell and the reason this family is breaking up..
You had no idea how hurtful it is..
Haix..
Everything is imperfection to you..

Yesterday i had to consult myself and my sis
Conflicts, complication..
But this is life right?
Nothing remains on top =)
And the best part about yesterday just make so happy was i had
DOUBLE MAC SPICY with my sis
I love it..
Plus it was my first time trying to order it online..
Cool shit..
Hee

2010-08-14T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hie..
I'm sneezing like mad now!
Hate it..Grrr
I so love yesterday outing with Dee =)
I love being at ART FRIEND shop..
I can imagine and use my creativity to do something..
Well i did bought a cherry and leapord print hp sticker and I LOVE IT =)
Hehe..
I went to sasa to buy aloe vera cream too sine my skin is peeling now =(
Super awful..
Side effect of sunburn..
How's life going..
Ermm
For me to know for you to find out =)

2010-08-12T01:08:00.015+08:00

SIMPANG BEDOK =)

I LOVE KISSES =)

NEVER FEED ME TOO =(

ICE-CREAM TIME!

3 LIL PIS

TULANG MOMENTS SO UNGLAM

MAKE UP TIME =)

Days has passed
Be it bitter or sweet i still love it..
It makes me stop reflect and think again..
We live for a purpose and that to taste the bitter sweet of life
So much happen and people decide what is best for themselves..
You'll learn who to trust and who you should not trust anymore..
You realize who has been hurting you and who has been trying their best not to hurt you..
I've feel and seen people come and go in my life..
But i wish those i love will never leave me again..

For the past months these girls has been picking me after i fall
Been lending me a shoulder to cry on
Advising me and kick my ass a few times if i misbehave
They've guide me and make me to be someone better too
The girls are dian,jolene and aisha =)
Me, dian and jolene has been labelling ourself as 3 little pigs..
It's was a random name we thought off and till today we still name ourselves as pigs
As usual i'm the youngest one and always being bullied!!

Last day of school..
We finally brought Jo to eat tulang!
And they manage to snap a photo of me biting the tulang..
So unglamorous!
After that we chill at clark quey and had serious talks and bimbos moments..
Lead by me the bimbo as usual..

National day we had an outing too..
Gosh catching fireworks with them is AWESOME!
Had lots of fun!!
Being with them made me felt so contented and happy with life..
It just made me realize that i should love myself more and them then boys..
They always sucked up my blood!
SUCKERS!
Ate at simpang BEDOK and home sweet home =)

Swimming a day before puase..
GOSH i'm like roasted pig now!
So tanned and the sun burn is still sizzling hot!
Heheh..
Thanks to those people whom organised it..
It really make my day =)
Thank you choco..

For now i'm savoring my egg tarts
YUMMY!

And yarh..
Happy fasting =)

2010-08-02T06:58:00.006+08:00

Party time =)

AS we walk this long path we just need friends to hold us and guide us too =)

Are you thinking what i am thinking! FOOD

Hey bloggy =)
sorry no more tag board for you since people out there are so RUDE!
anyway..had a hell of so much HURT last week which cause me to have insomnia in the end..
Felt so disturb!
Ergh..
A special thanks to my good friends for being there for me all the time..
I love them =)
Anyway i sort out my mind already this time..
I've climb back to the top and i learn to be stronger
I pick up the broken pieces and mend it back..
Life is such a roller coaster
I lose and met new friends along the way

Well..
Plans for this week..
Management report need to be done by today..
FYP report by Friday..
Next week presentation to HPB about our project..
How cool is that..!
But..errr..
It's gonna be scary..
Hopefully we gonna do well and Ace's it =)

Now!
I'm thinking of food!
I got back my appetite some how..
But i fell sick this time ='(
Jo n Dee..
Can we have the big ice-cream today!
I wanna be HYPER!!!
Hehe..
AND don't bully me again by pushing me into the pool!!
ERGH!!
Haha..
Gonna wear a dress to school today..
Just in the mood of dressy =)
Love
Sya <3>

2010-07-27T13:32:00.003+08:00

It's fugging annoying when some people just don't know when to stop..
Or even see the line!
Have you ever taught about others dinity or you just simply brainless..
Oh i forgot you're just fugging haters whom is freaking heartless..
Anyway i wasn't having a good week this time..
Hater's and guys..
Screw you both people in the world.
Whatever!
I am so in love with AYAM and the big round ice-cream in school =)
Love my beb's too..
Even tho they do bully me..
I'm happy
Been laughing our ass out since the mac incident..
Hehehe..
And one thing mr/ms spamer..
I think i'm gonna report to the police about you soon enough..
So yarh..
You breech my confidential issue and being a stalker..
You do it the wrong way this time and mess with the wrong person..
I had enough..
Plus i don't understand why you must KPO so much..
Ha!
I should not be nice anymore i guess..

2010-07-17T01:38:00.004+08:00

Every individual has always something to say or comment..
It might be good or bad thing..
It depends on the situation..
Some people stoop so low to critics and express their unhappiness/anger or even jealousy..
Everyone has their own life to lead..
Learn to be happy for other and you lead a happy life too..
Never use the word hate as it's strong word to use..
Use dislike instead..
It doesn't matter if you dislike that person so much as long as you don't meddle to much of their affairs..
Cause it's their own life they wanna lead..
And who are you any way?
People just need mirrors or even time to reflect on themselves..
Try sitting down and think..
It is worthy meddling and poking noses to other people affair?
Who am i to that person?
Shouldn't i be happy for that person?
If she did something shouldn't i help her nicely and lead her?
Sometimes gentle approach and gesture don't hurt people and it works..
Happy moments are to be shared with others..
Sad moments are meant to be shared with your loves one or people you're close too..
This is what my friends told me..
It's not for the whole world to know your problems or unhappy moments sometimes..
But it for the whole world to know you're happy and leading a simple and happy life..
=)
Be happy people..
Every problem has a solution..
Cry it out if you can't take it..
Speak to someone to express the feelings..
Consult and seek other opinion..
They might be right or wrong but it's you whom have to decide
Whether are they telling you the right thing or not..

2010-07-13T11:46:00.007+08:00

Mom,mummy and me =)

Weekends was fabulous!
I was out from s'pore for 3 days 2 night
When to ride a cruise to KL!
It was superb and awesome =)
There's so much food and we're like having breakfast,lunch,dinner and supper
I feel so fat after eating so much! what's more its buffet
We keep topping up our food..
Mom is so into duck meat,mummy with her lamb and me hams..
Hahaha..
There's cinema,pool, disco and even ice-cream shop =)
Cam whore almost every hour..
It defineilty a ride i'll never forget
When i was on board there was nothing on my mind
It feels damn good!
Since i was doing nothing that gonna stress me
A special thanks to mom..
It was my advance birthday gift from her..
I am so blessed to have her as my mom..
What else i could ask for? I just feel blessed
The short get away was definitely a must for me..
It was a hell of a week for the past few weeks..
Exams,presentati0n etc..
Now i'm left with 3 more weeks of school and exams again..
Soon it'll be attachment all the way
And the next thing i kn0w i am graduating =)
I was away and Boo told me he miss me!
So sweet..
He fetch me for habour front where my ship dock and took me out after that
It's time for me to spent time with him on that day..
Haa
Walk around at orchard and had cold rock ice-cream and sakura..
Finally he saw his bermudas and he bought new shoes for himself..
Naughty2 keep spending uh..haha =)
Lastly
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISHA(ADIK) AND MY DEAREST NENEK!
I LOVE BOTH OF YOU =)

2010-07-07T22:14:00.005+08:00

FASHION!

2010-07-07T12:01:00.003+08:00

It was hell lot of stress and fun yesterday!
Stress cause in the noon i was having presentation and lab skill exams..

How did it went..

Well..everything went well..

The lecturer was pretty impressed with our work even tho it was super last min..

Lab skills i passed!! Thanks to everyone lucky charm esp my dearest BOM2 charm..

It never fails to work each time i need it..hahah

After all that we're having lectures at 4-6..

As the lecturer was busy educating us DIAN was happily snoring beside me..

HAHAHA!!

She was snoring loudly, the moment she woke up she ask me one question "did i snore?"

DEEEE..you did baby!! ahahah..

Went to BUGIS to shop after that..

Everything was perfect..

From producing good results to retail therapy with Dee and Boo..

I bought a pant,dress and shoes..I spent $40 in total..

Boo a jeans and shoes..

Dee pants,shoes and shoes =)

It really feel GOOD after so long..

Now i am having 3 hr break not knowing what to do thus i blog..haha

SO SLEEPPPYYY NOWWW!! YAWNS

2010-07-03T01:38:00.003+08:00

Exams is so over now and yes it feels so much better..I realize that since the day I started this course till now I am so prone to falling sick without fail..immunity is super bad n stress level is so high..I wonder am I learning way to much than other people should do in that particular course they are in..well supposingly nursing is meant for A-lvl students but who on earth will have the courage and patience towards all those grossy stuff and uncoporative patients at times..in this line u can really meet a lot of people with attitude..a friend ask told I am not healthy..I know that dear but I can't help it..I am under huge amount of stress and I am busy with work and school pluz I totally lost of appetite..I don't find a need to eat sometimes..I love binge eating during exmas period when I was in secondary school but now everything change.. The stress I am facing is not the same as my secondary school time..oh wells stress can be good and bad =) past few days I have yet to meet him and today had world war right before exams but at the end of the we're fine.. Sometimes I feel damn stupid to fall in love the word love really blinds people sometimes.. People around me said I deserve better guys I know that too but when it comes to the word love back again it's just hard.. I love him a lot that I am willing to accept his flaws and weakness.. He's been busy with soccer since he is playing for safsa..that he's area of intrest soccer thus I have to respect that and support him =) am still waiting for my pay now suppose to be in on the first but delay and till Now it's not in.. Told him I wanna shop he said ok, this time he gave a green light to me and allow me to shop but I am reluctant to do that I wanna save as I badly wanna travel next yr! I think I'll just get a dress or top with one shoe only and that's it! Haha I think this is long enough that all for now We tend to make the wrong decision but never think it's bad cause it will always be a learning process for us to be stronger and better

2010-06-27T02:31:00.004+08:00

1 more day to my exams and there nothing much i can memories now..
my dear brains are bursting..
sometime i hate falling in love with you but i love it..
mmm..
sometimes you're a big time jerk!
but after all there's changes in you then should be okay..
u did learn to be romantic..
anyways..
i'm going to different outlet to work now..
=)
2 more weeks and cruisey here i come!!
I'll be missing you b..
But i totally need a break out everything..
2 weeks of hell!!
Exams, skills test and presentation not forgetting FYP!
FUCK YOG!
thanks to this everything seems to be in rush..
suppose to enjoy this hols and only worry about presentation but now exams is included too..
Oh well..
to anyone who wish to enter poly if u can adapt to the changes and cope with all these modules then you'll survive
esp nursing..
being a nurse is huge responsibilities..
a mistake made by us and they pay the price..
people lives are in our hands..
FYI
my hols = attachment or stdy break for exams
mmmm..
it'll be over soon
but wateva it is..
i'm trying to enjoy my last year in school..
i'll miss my beb's

tell them i was happy but my heart is broken..
the scars can always bleed again if it's not treated well..

2010-06-22T17:05:00.008+08:00

Love Quotes =)

Your kiss takes my pain away

A perfect relationship is one with imperfections.

One Love

One love to last forever,
One dream to have to share
One special person close to you
To make each day so rare.

One love to stand beside you
One face to make you smile
One voice to say "I love you"
And make your life worthwhile.

One love to warm and comfort you
One heart that's always true
One touch to hold the magic
That only shines for you.

2010-06-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

It's sucky to be sick..
='(

2010-06-21T01:50:00.006+08:00

This is how Daania looks like after eating the banana =)
Love her truckloads..
So lucky to meet her on Fri after Boo go for his guard duty..

Over the weekends..
Been spending quality time with love =)
The best part was we finally spent time together for the whole day after a long time..
It was superb and i love it!
Plus finally we went swimming together =)
Am a bit tanned now but who care..
I had fun!

Happy father days to all dad =)
Had family outing with 2 men..
My dad n grandpa..
Weee...

Enough of me having fun time to get my brain cracking!
Suppose to study for exams and still not even 1 book i have finish reading..
Oh no!!
I need to super buck up next week is exam beb!!

Health been coughing non-stop
Super the irritating!!
Hate it ='(

Lappy is finally send for repair!
Yeapy!!

2010-06-17T15:25:00.006+08:00

LONELY AND ALONE

2010-06-16T00:03:00.003+08:00

It's my 19th month anniversary today..
Honestly this is the first time i date some one this long..
And his the first that make feel that his the one..
All my other family members seen cool to have in the family now =)

Me: Happy 19month anni dear..Days being with you hv been a meaningful one! W/out you i tink i do gt lost..Thnks for being a part of me dear..I love you so much
Him: Happy 19mth anny! Luv u too..Hope things will go well 4 both of us =)

I know he's trying hard to mushy and this is the best he can be..
Awww...
Love<3>

2010-06-15T11:29:00.004+08:00

When the sun set down..
It's telling you that it's the end of the day..
It's time for you to be prepare for a new day..
The future is ahead of you and the past will always be remembered..
Discard the unhappy moments and keep the sweet ones in your memory..
Each time i watch a sunset i feel relieve..
Whatever happen in the day be it bitter or sweet i know it's time to end it and let it go..
Bearing grudges and hating someone is tiring..
I've learn to let go and hoping the person will change for the better..
Nobody is perfect in any way..
Criticism on others is no necessary
Cause at the end of the day ask this to yourself..
Am i perfect in any way?
I'm like her too that why i critic her..
The day is time where a lot of work is done and when it reaches the night time..
It shall end..
MORNING DAY NIGHT..
Which part of the day makes you feel like you're gonna reflect yourself?
=)

2010-06-14T00:47:00.003+08:00

Friday was super fun..
It was the last day of school and prom was bored so we went clubbing at REBEL..
Me and my girls make our way there around 9..
It was one hell of a fun day cause it's been months since i last club..
And B was sweet enough to let me club with my girls for the first time..
Thanks B and thanks beb for helping me too..
Something unintentional happen and got me into trouble but at the end of the day thing was still fine =)
Hee..
It was shocking and people around me do notice the weird change esp my sis and B..
Hee..
Party all night long..
Grinding with my beb's and kissing each other..
Haha..
It's sure one hell of fun..
Thanks to dee sis and us for telling guys we're lesbian we're save..
Haha..
All of us are good girlfriends to our boyfriends that's why we're told the guys we're lesbian..haha
=)
I know he'll come and meet me after i'm done partying some how cause he's worried and ensure i'm fine..
And while he's trying to put me to sleep before he went off it was then he realize his observation and instinct wasn't wrong he know something wasn't right..
Boo it was an accident..
I'm sorry..
Saturday..
Movies..
Watch karate kid with B and fizan..
I end up crying at certain scene cause the words the use has touch my heart..
B just lend me his shoulder to cry on through out the whole movie since he knows i'm a cry baby..
Heee..
Later on that night he went clubbing and he spent most of the time drinking with his guys friends..
Me at home being a good girl =)
It's his turn to club that day..
Most girls will say no if the guy wanna club as for me if he know his limits i'm fine..
And since it was his first time allowing me to club with the beb's i can't so no to him..

Sunday,
Sleeping at home and rest..
Damn exhausted and my legs is super cramp..
Meet B up and went to cck..
Had tako balls and share kebab with each other..
We keep sharing food =)
We also talk about the future 11/11/11
Heee..
My anni is coming too..
Thanks shaluu for reminding me as both of us has the same anni month but diff date..
=)

Relationship is like a roller coaster ride it's full of up and down..
Love and hurt..

2010-06-11T08:14:00.002+08:00

To passerby..
You know what i don't care what you're gonna say about me or him
Reason, do you think you're too perfect?
Or shall i say how perfect are you and your partner?
LOLS!
Look at yourself in the mirror..
If you think you're pretty and hot ermm..
How come i don't see you some where in the magazine?
Or are you to ashamed of your own identity to even put your name
and just put is as passerby just to critic others?
LOL!
Anyway i won't waste my time on you..
I got other things to worry
Wanna critic others please la be daring enough to type your name in..
If not FUCK OFF!

2010-06-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

"Impossible"

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did...

2010-06-04T23:47:00.002+08:00

I don't know why no matter how many times we tried to be away from each other we still can't do it..
It's unsuccessful..
We're too dependent on each other..
And i've got to admit DAMN BOY!
YOU NEVER FAIL TO MAKE FALL HARD FOR YOU!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RAHMAD HAMZAH!!
Tooopiiid is the word to describe this but yarh..
I just can't stop loving you not even once..
Yes i did manage to live on my own but this feeling won't go away..
I'm really into you no matter how bad you are..
Only you can tolerate my stupidity and clumsiness..

2010-06-02T23:04:00.001+08:00

One minute we're fine the other min you're really GONE from my LIFE..
I'm speechless..
='((
All i can say it hurts real bad and i don't know what's gonna happen next..

2010-06-01T23:16:00.003+08:00

This lil baby is so cute and smart..
I love her to bits..
A question was pop out by DEE..
Does guy go you cause of LOVE or LUST?
Well majority will go for lust and i experience it before..
HATE FUCKING MEN whom does that to us..
NCB!
Girls want love not entertaining your fucking LUST!
No wonder a lot of pretty girls gave up on men and became a Butch..
Hmm..
For my case and him..
I think he stick with me cause of LOVE..
He seen my bad and good side..
He loves me for i am and accept me the way i am..
We've learn a lot in this entire journey..
What i can't say he change for the better each time
Except that he need to control his damn bloody harsh words and anger..
ERGH!
As for me i should stop being confused..
Hahaha..
He hate it alot when that happen..
Anyway, we're planning to go holiday..
He's so sweet..
Must save up..
I love my peers too =)
Be it male or female..
TO FUCKERS OUT THERE..
STOP THINKING THAT WOMEN ARE MEANT TO BE USED!!
WE ARE NOT BUY AND THROW AWAY!
NCB!

2010-05-29T03:18:00.002+08:00

Met up with lil daania today..
Super cute! haha
Anyway work is madness!
Had to called over 2000 customer to inform that our outlet is back..
Wth, i only manage to call 150 people
Hahah..
Hmm..what else should i type here..
Nothing much =)

2010-05-26T22:26:00.001+08:00

Weee....
Presentation Over..
PHEW =))

2010-05-24T23:12:00.004+08:00

My passport foto is fugly!
One visible pimple can be seen the foto and my eyebrow is super cacat!
Yucks!!
Rahmad kept one of the foto and one for my passport and left with 4 foto..
I wanna apply P.E as i really want to secure a place in TTSH after i grad next year..
Hmm..
Need to talk to mom abt it cause with my parents prayers and help some things can really go right..
I'm ordering a floral tank top from
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/photo.php?pid=11120&id=100001116004367

Nad Annash's Photos - fernando (COLLECTION ONE)

It's only $10 hopefully i can fit since it's UK 6/8
This is my friends blogshop so do support..
Not forgetting KINA's Blogshop too..
Do support them okay =)
To whoever is reading my post now..
Haha..Kina blogshop you can find in my link =)

Should stop shopping!
Even thought the clothes i bought is affordable..
But this month is way too much..
4top..
2dress..
1 toga..
1 skirt..
OMG!
really too much..
Bad me..
This month no more already..
Haha..
Cotton on having sales!!
But no syaheda..
Next month then i'll shop again for shorts and ermmm...
Haha..
Someone must really stop me from shopping!!

I really miss KARAOKE!!
Someone please bring me..
This wed will be my last presentation for now..
And after this i must study study study for EXAMS!!
1 more month to EXAMS!!
URGH!!

2010-05-23T00:23:00.005+08:00

So much things has settled and it really feels GREAT!
No longer quarreling with Rahmad..
Bought him 2 chocolate BOOST as it's his favorite and gonna meet him later..
If you're wondering about my status actually i also don't know..
We didn't say patch we're sticking to each other here and there..
Too used to him already..

Anyway went to west coast today with my family..
My lil sis was happily flaying her kite with dad
While me and mom eat MAC Donald..
Haha..
Perangai gemok seh aku..
Didn't eat breakfast and lunch what do you expect..
Mac was the first meal for the day..
After that went to had dinner as a family and shop at sheng siong..
=)
I love my family..

2010-05-20T22:04:00.002+08:00

Life isn't that bad now..
Did take things into a lot of consideration and learn to manage it..
Told him to take things slow and work things out slowly..
Been home with my family most day and i like it..
Work was bored but fun cause i missed working!
Hehe..
I like boon keng outlet cause it's in a shop with air-con..
Keep going toilet cause it super cold..
End up i switch off the air-con..
Done with skill assessment and adult nursing 3 presentation and also journal critic =)
My mind feel so free now
Weee...
I want to sleep early too cause tomorrow gonna be a long day..
School, work and gf pit..
Hee =)

2010-05-19T23:06:00.002+08:00

Am i dumb or stupid?
Am i really blind or being blindfolded?
One min i lose you the other min you're back..
I'm scared to fall hard again..
I won't deny i still love you..
But..
I'm scared

2010-05-17T19:40:00.003+08:00

"Outta Here"
ESMÉE DENTERS

Get me outta here
'Cuz my eyes are burning
From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don't really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place
Right now

It's so amazing how you have so many faces
And you are not that person I thought that
I had fell so deep in love with

You changed up your makeup your DNA
I can't recognize you're a stranger to me
I feel so betrayed what a waste of my heart and me

Get me outta here
'Cuz my eyes are burning
From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don't really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place
Right now

My body's trembling it's so damn hard
To kick this feeling, your heart is so cold and now I'm freezing
Wish you could feel the pain, maybe I will arrange it
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah

You changed up your makeup your DNA
I can't recognize, you're a stranger to me
I feel so betrayed, what a waste of my heart and me

Get me outta here
'Cuz my eyes are burning
From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don't really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

I thought that we were forever
I guess I misunderstood
My fault for thinking you loved me
Or in thinking you ever could
Get me out of here right now
Get me out of here right now

Get me outta here
'Cuz my eyes are burning
From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don't really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

Get me outta here
'Cuz my eyes are burning
From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don't really care
(you don't really care)
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

1,2,3,4
Right now, right now, right now
Someone get me outta this place
Get me outta here

2010-05-17T19:30:00.002+08:00

My heart has shattered..
It really hurts..
I'm trying to help but you blame and scold me..
I won't meddle with your stuff anymore from this day onwards..
Don't come to me and ask for help anymore..
Helping you was a bad idea to you..
What's the point of asking me to help sometimes?
I won't help you..
I won't talk to you..
Even if i did not talk or msg you, you wouldn't find me..
I'm hurt enough..
I'm sorry for the hurt i cause you before..
I'm just speechless and my eyes is full off tears...

2010-05-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

Got to admit he's been nice lately but yet still a bit jerky..
He did look after me when I'm sick now..
Every time we went out he send me home..
But it gonna take time to heal the old wounds..
It might not be that easy i shall say..
I'm sorry..

I love school as usual..
Skill assessment next week..
Presentation next week too..
Well it's gonna be a hell of a week huh?
Hehe =)

Should i go butter factory tomorrow?
Mmm..
Still considering..

2010-05-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

When to visit the doctor today since my gastric is getting out of hand..
Today was the worse symptoms i've had and that explain why..
The doc told me i'm really in a bad shape and if i really ignore these symptoms
Including not taking meds..
I have to go for more scans as they fear it's gonna be peptic ulcer..
I really loss my appetite..
='(
I've been good and take my meds just now
Still i can feel the heartburn and feel giddy..
My stomach is producing too much acid already..
Stop producing too much can?
Mom been forcing me to eat since then..
Whatever i eat some will retain some will not..
As I've vomit it out already..
I'm malnourished now..
Hee..
Anyway
To that someone..
I miss you..

2010-05-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

I miss you a lots..
So much thing have change..
My sweetest drug is no longer here..
Wished that you're gonna hug me and tell me everything is fine
But it doesn't happens that way..
Mmm...
School smooth sailing except for journal article which need to be done asap..

HAPPY MOTHER DAY!!
Love my mom many2!!

2010-05-06T16:35:00.002+08:00

Everything seems to be so different..
As time flies things change..
Without knowing what really happen..
School has been stressful as ever..
Me busy with work and i'm lacking of social life sometimes..
Work,school= minimal social life..
Haha..
Anyway! I love you daya...
You make me feel so much better =)
Shopping spreee..
Heee

2010-05-04T19:33:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fEd7qwqfSlo
Doesn't mean anything alicia keys

Used to dream of being a millionaire
Without a care
But if I'm seeing my dreams n you aren't there
Cuz it's over..
It just won't be fair

Darlin,
I rather be a poor woman, livin' on the streets
No food to eat
Cuz I don't want nobody, if I have to cry
Cuz it's over..
When you said "good bye"

[chorus]
All at once.. I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Now that your gone
From above.. seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Since you're gone

Now I see myself thru different eyes
It's no surprise
Bein' alone would make you realize
When it's over..
All in love is fair
(I should of been there, I should of been there, I should of, should of)

All at once.. I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Now that your gone
From above.. seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Since you're gone

[Bridge]
I know I pushed you way
What can I do that will save our love?
Take these material things
They don't mean nothing
It's you that I want

All at once.. I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Now that your gone
From above.. seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Since you're gone
(I should of been there, I should of been there, I should of, should of)

All at once.. see I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Now that your gone
From above.. seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything
Since you're gone..
[instrumental fade out]

2010-05-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

Damn my laptop..
Why it's has to be in this state now..
I got projects to do..
OMG!
Can people just see and listen to work?
Both me and Dee is freaking out..
It's hard if you keep wanting to drown and want us to save you..
C'mmon you all year 3 so am I
Any feedback do take it seriously and do something..
Don't understand you can always ask right?
Don't keep quiet and give bullshits!
And please don't cut and paste even if you do try to summaries it and use your own words..
I myself is bucking up..
I do get fucked and scolding from the leaders if i need it last time..
Cause i know they care and want the best..
And now as a leader i have to do something too..
So WAKE UP!
If you wanna talk about busy and tired stop bullshitting it to me..
I'm working most of the time and schooling..
And how the hack i manage to collate everything is getting my ass to my cousin place just to get it done..
I'm tired too..
Very very very tired..
But we have to be and remain consistence..
Please try..

2010-05-03T04:06:00.004+08:00

I keep having nightmares ='(
My mental state currently is unstable due to certain reason..
I've learn to balance work and play..
Recent updates everything seems so wrong..
Tension everywhere..
Oh well..
That's life..
I fell hard and i manage to pull myself thru...
That's all..

2010-04-26T00:13:00.005+08:00

His last gift for his birthday from me was a couple ring..
We always want to have one but we keep delaying it..
Today, when we're walking around junction 8 we found this ring..
Both of fall in love with this design as it's simple and nice..
He told me i'll owe a diamond after we plan to get married..
Haha
Super cute..
Been on good term with him and i like it..

School has been a hell of a roller coaster..
But it's fine with me..
This is life =)
I'll just continue to work hard cause a good team leader don't pull the weak member down but learn to motivate and push them..
A team work together and stay together =)
I've already start to learn to focus and push myself to work super hard to achieve somethings =)
That's all people..
Can't wait to go to Sentosa with bestie..
She want to sun tan and i want to stay under the umbrella and watch the view.. Hahaa..
Can't afford to be so tanned..
I'll be super burn!!

I love my family..
I love you boo..
I love my friends too =)

2010-04-22T01:06:00.002+08:00

It's only the 3rd of school and we're already being bombarded
by tones to presentation,assignment,theory test & not forgetting practical skill exams..
And guess what, our exam is in 2month time..
THIS SUPER MADNESS!!
Right after the exams is Final Year Project submission(FYP)
Oh Allah, please give me the strength to face my final challenge
In order to give each one of us strong to motivate each other..
Everyone is freaking stress out now..
And it's not even the 2nd week yet..
Imagine how stress can we get..
It not surprising if they said if you think you cannot cope with your year 2 stress might as well don't go year 3..
Now i understand why they said that..
My loves one has been supportive so far..
Not forgetting my peeps too.. =)
For my latest new: My hubby has a cast on his hand now..
Redo his bandage just now and i think it's okay..
Still intact to me..haha
He's such a lovey dovey fellow when his sick but he do get very cranky sometimes..
Anyway, i'm gonna nurse him till he recover as usual..
I need to assist him in his ADL's(activity of living)
As it's his dominant hand which is cast..
Oh well..
I'm gonna hit the bed now..
Nights people..
=)

2010-04-19T01:13:00.003+08:00

On his birthday=)
I HEARTS YOU!

I don't know what went wrong this time round in my relationship..
Been quarreling,fighting and giving cold shoulders here and there
I am sick and tired of this bull shit and nonsense..
I do love you understand!
But somehow i feel that you're feeling insecure or something..
All i know is something is amiss here..
Stop this crap cause i wouldn't want to be a women with no heart at all..
I can damn heartless once i gave up..
Please if you wanna be together with work with me..
We sort things out..
When i ask you do you love me?
You said yes..
Mmmm...
Speechless darh dey..
Anyway things did get slightly better when we meet just now..
Let's take one step at a time then..
AND lastly..
SCHOOL TOMORROW!!
WEEE!!

2010-04-16T01:41:00.001+08:00

Happy 17 monthsary and happy 20th birthday Boo..LOVES ♥

Love you a lot hubby =)

2010-04-13T23:26:00.001+08:00

You always get critics from people..
They will never learn to shut up..
Some critics is good but some let just say you shut the hell up and keep it to yourself..
FUCK!

2010-04-12T23:18:00.001+08:00

I really got nothing to do..
Thus i edited these photos..
Heeee =))

2010-04-12T18:17:00.003+08:00

My wisdom tooth is growing..
Ouch!! It's so painful ='((
Today is Monday and i've been sleeping the whole day at home..
Damn shiok =)
It's been ages i get to sleep this long hours..
Heheh
Boo is busy with guard duty..
The best part of today is i get to eat CHUT-CHUT..
Mom bought it fr me yesterday..
Super sedap..
I like.. =)
Dad is annoying that i just went back into my room to ignore him..
He don't respect my privacy at all..
I won't type out what he did cause it's not for anyone to know...
So the irritating..
If my mom were there just now..
Mom will shoot him for sure..
Hmph!
Latest news: There's a lot of bangla perverts around, please be on guard ladies..
Area i heard of and experience before is Paya Lebar and Choa Chu Kang..
I don't understand their mentality at all..
If really they are IMH patient i can understand cause it might due to the drug they take..
For those whom were not..
Get a LIFE!!
There's such place known as RED DISTRICT!
You can even choose the one you like..
Idiot!
Brainless chap..
I hope the LAW will punish you severely..

2010-04-12T00:48:00.006+08:00

He has always been the other half of me =)

It's been a while since i blog..
Haha...da too dusty =)
Well been very busy lately that i hardly have time to sit on my lappy or comp for long hrs..
Attachment has ended last Friday..
It feels damn good its over..
I really2 enjoy my posting this time round and i did work hard to make sure i did well..
Like finally the CI's saw my effort..
I learn a lot of lesson through out this whole journey..
I know where i wanna be and what to be..
I'm willing to work extra hard to achieve it..
I must stop grumbling about how hard it is now..
Cause hell yarh i gone way to far now to turn back..
I am to say i want to be a nurse now..
I want to care for the society and my loves one..
It feels damn good somehow to be a nurse..
I enter without interest and passion but after a real hard downfall i face..
I've finally wake up and learn from it..
It wasn't easy and my peers know that..
They've been helping me and giving me motivation including screaming at me if I'm way out of hand..
Well girls thank you for all that..
Not forgetting Boo and my family whom has been very supportive..
I love all of them..

2010-03-26T22:41:00.003+08:00

This week, my attachment has just started..
Everything is going fine now..
I've learn to manage and keep myself busy to survive plus PASS!
I think i've buck up much more then the previous semesters that i've gone thru..
For the first time, i passed all my modules and achieve much more then i expected..
As in my own goals..
I just need to make sure i'm perfoming well this attachment..
Irelise how important nurses are in the process of recovery..
Not only we help them to get better physically but also mentally..
Smiling, joking and talking to them everyday does make a different..
It feel good when my patient that i care for is discharge and fit for home..
It makes me happy when i they smile at me too =)
Every attachment we do have assignment and case study not forgetting pre-reading..
I'm suppose to present the case study on monday as well as hand up the drug list..
Which is 7pg long O_O!?!?
All of us are going boinkers soon..
It's super tiring went i have to work twice/day..
Am no a super woman but i want to work hard..
I've been busy with work that i had lesser time for family,friends and BF..
I miss hugging my pillow for more then 12hrs..
Nowdays i only use it when i go to bed only =(
B has been reasonbly understanding..
He understand the nature of my job and doesn't demand much cause he knows that i'll make time to meet him somehow..
I don't know if he is hanky pankying behind my back..
Independent women will say: I don't care..
A dependent and a person whom is madly in love: They'll get paranoid and get agitated etc...
Me half2 of those 2...
Anyway..
I miss baby daania and my sister..
Been spending less time with them...
Oh well..
Thats all for now..
A summary of my week.. =)
Bye people..

2010-03-18T10:27:00.004+08:00

Till today,i still sucks at IT stuff..Esh..
I almost damage a machine yesterday but luckily i was smart enough and know what to do next..
Critical thinking..
Hahah
Some people is just to arrogance as they don't know how to ask for help or don't even wanna help others..
Whateva..
It's school holiday for adik now..
Haha..She's trying to spend her holiday fruitfully
Cute..
She has tonnes of homework like how i used to have last time..
And she wants to go shopping..
She wants me to go shopping too but i must wait for the money to drop from the sky first..
Heheh..
I wanna go swimming today since later on the day i'm going cck stadium to catch soccer..
=)
B is having pms like me..
One min his ok one min not..
All i can say his words were harsh..
I just tired to focus on LOVE now..
Bestie is having the same situation too..
She said LOVE sucks..
LOL..
I have not reach to that extend to say that yet..
Now..
I want to watch pisau cukur..
Bye =))
Next week attachment start...Eeeee...

2010-03-16T23:12:00.006+08:00

Life has been going fine lately..
Been spending time with Boo the moment his back..
One of the sweetest things was he cooked supper for me and crack open a coconut..
It's super nice and the coconut is fresh =))
I like..
Saturday was definitely a whole day outing..
The most exciting thing, it was a double date..
Bestie(daya and em) and me ( Boo and me) =)
Zoo was our first stop and next St James..
Partying like a rock star..
Haha..Crazy people like us..
The whole day outing really tired me out..
End up i was snoring the whole of Sunday..
Monday training and just now evaluation..
Boo bought for me bubble tea just now =)
And i cooked mash potato and chicken..
Yummy..
Boo and dayah and sis love the mash potato
Next time i can cook it again..
Hehe..
I want to msg Boo and go to bed now..

A picture of me and dayah before partying..
Boo and me at the zoo, pic taken while waiting for the show to start
Yummy coconut that boo open up for me
I love him <3

2010-03-11T13:14:00.002+08:00

Since the day Boo book out till today..
I've been spending time with him..
The moment i saw him the other day..
I was very very HAPPY!!
I don't know how i can express that moment but all i can say is i really miss him alot..
It's like meeting up with my long loast boyfriend..
Heee =)
Yesterday was FUN..
We kept traveling here and there..
First was Hendreson industrial park for my interview..
Next was bugis to eat and Boo shop for his new jeans..
After that Grandlink, he really sing his heart out Not forgetting Faheem and Dayah
We went out on a double date =))
The last plan of the day was to sunshine and had our so call supper and home sweet home..
Now B is here with me..
GTG =))

2010-03-09T12:20:00.004+08:00

Syaheda is rotting at home today!!

Waiting for RAHMAD HAMZAH aka Boo..
To be out like TODAY 11pm!!!
(only if his leave is approved)
ARGH!!!
My heart is pounding hard..
I can't wait to meet him.!!
HONESTLY, his CSM is getting on my nerves..
Once his leave is approved, we have to settle his school stuff first..
Huahua..
He need to study again for his future..
You're a man like duh..
He has to support his family after he has one..
Not the women of the house..
TTSH appointment i'll settle it for you..
What else do i need to settle for you...
Mmmm..*Wondering*
In a week time attachment is starting..
I can't believe i'm going year 3 now..
It's freaking me out and it's scary..
It'll be a hell of a year..
Well, my plans after diploma..
Work work work and start saving money for my own future..
I think i might consider TTSH, the new yishun hospital or even the jurong hospital..
Oh well, let's just talk about that later..
Anyway, i lost a library book yesterday..
How dumb and clumsy can i get..
If you ask me to recall the past like..where was the last place i leave the book..
I'll say i don't know cause i can't recall a thing..
Yes as usual B will be angry at me..
I thought he was fuming mad at me but it seems he's getting a hang of my CLUTZ attitude..
I did brood over it the whole day ='((
I even stop talking to everyone the whole night yesterday..
B was smsing the whole night and told me..
He's not mad at me already but i didn't replied i just kept silent..
I'm sorry..=/
Know what, last Friday someone told me me that i wasn't cool cause i don't smoke..
When he said that i literally stared at him and laugh..
Yes he offered me cigratte and i told him i don't smoke..
It was then he said that..
Do i need to smoke to be cool??
Haha..It's hilarious okay..
Plus try influcing me to SMOKE..
I just walk away or say NO!!
I don't need to smoke to be COOL!
LOL!
Smoking=Waste money and increase health problems..
I think once you see a COPD patient you'll QUIT SMOKING..
What is COPD?
Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease
http://www.copdas.com/whatis_copd.asp
Click this and you'll know more..

This is how you lung my look like if you smoke..
My bf smoke and he don't allow me to smoke and he know the risk..

That's all i'm blogging today =))

2010-03-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

Weekends..
I'm so happy this weekends..
For both days, i'm out with my family having dinner together =)
My dad is the most happiest men on EARTH on this day..
It's been a long time since we had family dinner together..
Mmm...
Today, i accompanied my cousin to send daania for her swimming session..
Hahah..
She so cute..
Attention seeker la that small baby..
She loves the crowd..
=)

Dayah, i don't know what's wrong with you..
mmm..It's not that i want to hurt or something but you question is like..
Haiz..Nvm..
Like duh right if mon you're working i can send it for you..
I don't want to go on SUN cause i don't want to go down to the office twice..
As we still need a new log sheet..
Mmm..
And for godness sake don't ask me about your new job schedule..
I don't know when you're working..
I don't want you to take double job cause end up..
You might mess things up and i know you hate pressure..

I miss my boo..
Be home quick!!
I can't wait!!

2010-03-06T03:10:00.004+08:00

Friday!!
Somehow i love my friday today =)
Start a day with a smile went B rang me up and talk to him with my SEXY! voice..
Hahah...
And end my day with a smile too =)
I like..
Whole day was fun and it was over super fast..
When to work as per normal..
Good remarks was given which make me feel like my hard work is paid off
Plus i'm working in pumps not heels..
Was so happy about it that i constantly work without stopping..
Gila babi sia me..
LOL!!
Muhd Rahmad Bin Hamzah is complaining to me that i did not gave him good night kisses anymore and because of that he don't wish to give me kisses too
='(
B! i give you many2 kiss k?
Muaks! muah! Muacks!!
Heheh..
I can't wait for you to be home again..
So much plan in mind..
Be going to meet daania and grandma tomorrow =))
Good night people..
Sweet dreams =)

2010-03-04T12:37:00.003+08:00

You're not texting me nor calling me aren't you..
What can i say..
I really had a rough and unpleasant week already..
I tried to understand your life in camp..
And can't you tried to understand my life too?
You told me, my family problem is my own problem not yours..
What the hell was that for?
Hiax..
I seriously won't think and bother so much now..
I got other major problem then ours...

Ps: I'm craving for doughnuts =(

2010-03-04T00:44:00.004+08:00

Botanic Garden outing with bestie was a blast..
=)
I had a lot of problems at home..
I'm tired to be strong and constantly improving myself to make this family works..
I'm the daughter and i'm suppose to be a kid..
Not someone whom has to act like a mom sometimes and work to support myself and my lil sis sometimes..
I'm tired and really drain..
How much energy does people wanna suck out from me..
I have to give proper care to patients
And now a place i call home seems soo..
I won't say it..
I know my sis is not concentrating well due to this..
How much paper has she flung..
I know she find it difficult to focus..
She's not like me..
I still can focus things for different situation..
But my sis can't
I have to be strong for her and be with her to nurture her to become a proper teen and adult one day..
I'm like a mom not a sister like that..
Oh god..
No matter what happen i am there for you adik..
I promise i look after you despite of what is happening now..
I love you..

2010-03-02T18:47:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kffacxfA7G4
I LOVE THIS!!

Baby Justin Bieber =))

Ohh wooaah Ohh wooaah Ohh wooaah
You know you love me, I know you care
Just shout whenever, And I'll be there
You are my love, You are my heart
And we will never ever-ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl quit playing
"We're just friends"
What are you sayin?
Said there's another and looked right in my eyes
My first love broke my heart for the first time,

And I was like
Baby, baby, baby oohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Baby, baby, baby oohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

oh oh
For you, I would have done whatever
And I just cant believe we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool, But I'm losin' you
I'll buy you anything, I'll buy you any ring
And I'm in pieces, Baby fix me
and just shake me til' you wake me from this bad dream

I'm going down, down, down, down~
And I just can't believe, my first love won't be around

And I'm like..
Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Luda, When I was thirteen, I had my first love
There was nobody that compare to my baby
And nobody came be between us
Or can ever come above
She had me going crazy
Oh, I was starstruck
She woke me up daily
Don't need no Starbucks
She make my heart pound
and skip a beat when I see her in the street
and, At school, on the playground
But I really wanna see her on a weekend
She knows she got me dazing
Cuz she was so amazing
And now, my heart is breakin'
But I just keep on sayin'..

Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

Baby, baby, baby ooh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby oooh
Thought you'd always be mine, mine

(Now I'm all gone)
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah
(Now I'm all gone)
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
(Now I'm all gone)
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Now I'm all gone, gone, gone, ooh
I'm gone

I'm still waiting for my baby to be home..

2010-03-01T21:13:00.006+08:00

Me have been busy with work over the weekends..
And my whole body is aching esp my hand and feet..
My first experience working in FNB line is really something that i won't forget..
It's true working in this line is HECTIC but time did fly fast..
Not forgetting how late i get home each day..
My Hubby is so sweet, he'll always waited for me to end work..
He keep waiting for my msges..
Yes he did get paranoid sometimes..
Anyways, i'm sorry i did not turn up for my class outing today..
=(
Ermm, i got nothing much to say for now..
I just can't wait for B to come back next week..
Be spending time with him..
=)
And yarh baby daania is cute..
Check out the pictures of her going swimming..

2010-02-27T09:26:00.005+08:00

I just can't seem to stop loving you MUHD RAHMAD BIN HAMZAH!
yes, i was pissed and hut when you keep calling my names esp STUPID!
Yesterday when i bring up this issue to you.. I'm glad you could accept how i feel about it and how i want you to change.. See, we can always talk amicably when we're not angry.. Control your anger okay hubby..
I know we can get pretty cranky at times..

Met up with him for like 30s just to pass his stuff..
Why 30s cause they fear he might run away..
I really hate his army life..
Some people say, he deserve that punishment, esp his brother..
Haiz..
But 3 weeks is too much to bear..
I'm outside and he's inside..
Thanks to this no more going home late or going out over the weekends..
It sucks!

Anyway, i'll be working today..
For the first time in my 4 years working experience i'm working under FNB!!
OMG!!
It's pretty scary to me..
Plus it's something new..
I need the money to settle certain things first..
It's a 1 month assignment thing..
So yarh..
I'll just work during my school holidays..

Good news! Exams is over..
Finally i had my proper sleep yesterday..
Full 8hrs..
Damn shiok!!
I'm excited to go Sentosa with my classmate this MONDAY..
Wee...An outing with the girls =))
Will be having another before school reopen too..
No forgetting my paramedic YOG training in April..
OMG going year 3 this April..
I'm gonna work hard and i want to graduate next year..
Yes, I'm gonna pursue to degree..insyallah
But i got to work first..
In order to make certain plans happen and i need to look after my sister in future..
Due to some internal problems..
I'm learning to be strong to overcome all this..
And thank you to lovely people out there whom help me and lend me a listening ear went i needed one esp my peeps =)
Love you people.. <3
Pictures were taken years back..

I want to go the ZOOO..
Waiting for B to bring me there..
He gave me his card yesterday to renew his season parking and the rest of the money for me to spent it on my shoes..
I'm just gonna take $10, the rest is your's..
No matter how many times he try to stop splurging on me he just can't =)
Since i'm working now, it's my turn to do that on you..
We'll be fair..

I got to go..
Want to watch cartoon..
Btw my mom bought me blueberry muffin it's delicious..
I LIKE!!!

2010-02-26T01:53:00.000+08:00

"According To You"

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

According to you
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
you're the boy who puts up with that.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I'm not hated. oh... no...
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me decide.

According to me
you're stupid,
you're useless,
you can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you. (you, you)
According to you. (you, you)

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pu1aQvm5MrU&feature=fvst

2010-02-26T00:28:00.002+08:00

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!
FUCK YOU!!
TO YOU I"M ALWAYS STUPID!!
ANSWER THIS?
IS IT STUPID TO ASK A QUESTION??
IS IT STUPID TO TELL YOU CERTAIN THINGS WHICH COMES IN MY WAY??
IS IT STUPID OF ME TO STAY FAITHFUL??
AND IS IT STUPID OF ME TO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT YOU???
Keep telling me I'm nothing to you..
Well the day will come when I'll say you're nothing to me too..
I'm FUCKING PISSED AND HURT!!
FUCK OFF!!

2010-02-23T12:59:00.004+08:00

Syaheda is having irregular sleeping patterns..
Her body is non functioning well..
Her physical state is going haywire..
Her mental state of mind is worst!!
All she can say is her BRAINS is EXPLODING!!
BOMB!!!!
2 more to go..
And she's done and over with!

What is she doing now?
Sneezing! Ahhhh CHhhhoooo
Going to shower and read her notes first before snoozing..

What is she thinking about now?
Her Hubby! She miss him so much!!
Other then that, she's dying to end this miserable situation!

That's all syaheda wants to blog!

PS: I hate it when Singaporean get super inconsiderate..
ESP in the morning train ride
When i say EXCUSE ME!
You just need to move aside and let me walk..
Not just stand there and wait till i push you or even said that phrase twice using a harsher and loud tone!
EEE......TOooopPpppiiiiIiiDDDD!!!

2010-02-22T00:20:00.003+08:00

I'm using every single brain cells in my head now to memories!!
And to understand..
I can't believe I'm having 4 paper straight this week
And all of it is a heavy module..
Mmm..
Plus it's in the morning!!
If i go to bed i'll end up missing my exams cause i might overslept
Oh god..
What i'm studying now..
Is Biology!!
Honestly i don't have high expectation..
I just want a pass that's all..
=/

My world has been like a roller coaster..
Hee..
Up and down..
Had a tiff with bf but we clear it up..
It was sweet when he said sorry =)
Anyway..
I' m so in LOVE with baby daania!!
Heee..
Chubby pooh bear! daania =))

Study study now..
Blogging is so sidetrack!
Hee..

XOxo..muaks!

2010-02-18T20:22:00.000+08:00

"Miss You Like Crazy"

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again
[Chorus:]
I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again
[Chorus]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxgTzyswQic&feature=related

19days more to go..

2010-02-18T14:38:00.008+08:00

What we had at mac?

Us with no make up..haha..

The Yuummmmyyy Cheesseecaakkeee =))

Studied at Mac Donalds yesterday with my lil sis,dayah and faheem..
Thanks people for keeping my accompany..
Well, the actual plan for that day was to meet up with B in the noon..
But something happen to B in camp..
That's why he will be away from me for 3 weeks..
Mmmm...
It's hard honestly being away from him..
So much misunderstanding and fight..
Ergh!
I miss him alots..
Back to the story, me and dayah is so in LOVE with the fusion cheesecake..
SEDAP!! YUMMY!!
I like, I like..
After studying at mac we went under a void deck
Since Lot 1 Mac is not 24hrs..
I continued studying there but first i have to send my sis home..
Heee..
Under the void deck , it's more to lepak and study session..
Eem was drawing and playing games with dayah..
This is what EEm draw on dayah

Till a bunch of YP came and asked us to drink BEER with them!
Like WTH!
The funny thing was that BOY ask me..
Are you studying for O'level?
I looked at him and laugh!!!
O"Level uh..And it gets even funnier when he ask if we're schooling tomorrow?
LOL!!
I guess all of us look young to them =)
Haha
Eem was like i'm a NS men now..hence i'm not schooling now..
And dayah, "like hello..she's is in poly now.."
Hee..Kids..
When i look at those kids..
It reminds me of my naughty past..
But somehow i wasn't to their extend..Hee..
That's all i want to blog..
Continue Studying now..
Love him
Miss him

2010-02-17T17:32:00.003+08:00

Boo will be away from me for 3 weeks
='(
Stupid NS life..
Which mean i cannot meet him for 3 weeks..
I really feels like his BMT time ='(
Nevermind..
Since i'm having exams soon..
I should shift my focus..
Study Study Study
Be a slave to my books now!!
Heee =)

3 weeks will be over soon..
9 march will be next date i'm meeting him..
Will be counting down to that day..
Mmm...
20days more
I miss you Boo..

2010-02-17T12:49:00.004+08:00

Presenting Baby Daania
Enjoy dancing with her =)
I love her =))
Super Cute

2010-02-17T02:35:00.013+08:00

Happy 15monthsary Boo =)

I'm glad we make it through again..
16/02/2010

I really had a good long break and it's a fruitful one to me..
Valentine Day

Catch Valentine Day movie and we actually celebrate it 12am
Cause i was with him since Saturday(played kite =) )..
We had no presents for each other..
But the best present we had was the love we had towards each other..
It might no necessarily be celebrated in a romantic manner..
To me the thought that counts and how he treat me and pampered me the whole valentine morning has touch me and really make me feel contented..
Thank you B..
It was a simple one but yet fun..
Not forgetting we played left for dead 2 on that day..
We did not meet up in the evening of valentine day as we're out with our own family

Pictures of playing kite =)

Our anniversary
Did celebrate it 12am again since i was with him Monday
Went to changi chalet to BBQ and went on fishing..
They caught squid and fish..
It was quiet big..
2am went home and his parents we're the one sending me home..
Hee..thank you =)
Evening after dinner with my family meet up with B again..
B fixed my bed already =))
Weee..
Send him off to camp and now..
I'm gonna study first and then sleep..

Did had a chance to meet up with baby daania for a few days too
=))
She so cute!

teaching her to hold her bottle =)

2010-02-11T16:30:00.002+08:00

How dumb can i get...

Lol!!

Thanks to dayah now i know why i cannot change my fonts!!

Hahaha..

Bodoh peh syaheda..

Dayah tkmo lang rahmad

Pinky promise =))

2010-02-10T17:49:00.004+08:00

Everything is back to normal =)
Plus he's been giving me wake up calls telling to get up and go to school..
Hee..He's sweet for now..Haha..

I'm so hot temper today..
Sorry to anyone whom i keep screaming at or being harsh towards..
Didn't mean it..But i'm pretty easy to be triggered now..
Anyway to that UNITY SECONDARY INDIAN girl just now..
You're damn!!!Tututututututut...
Don't know how to wait and i'm so huge yet you cannot see arh!!
CB! Blind arh!
Push me then keep cutting my queue some more..
Not once eh miss twice eh!!!
You go to school right? What you learn in school then?
Stuuuuuppppiiidddddd!!!!

As for now i can hear people singing and him/her voice cannot make it..
Sing loudly some more..
Lower down the volume la..
Even the kids under the void deck playing is screaming so loudly asking you to shut up!

I'm going to clean myself up and sleep first be studying at night..
B is busy with guard duty..
He has a lot of guard duty this month and next..
And those dates happens to be on special ocassion days
Eg. Valentine day, my annivarsary and days i'm free and even our Saturday ='(
I don't likey at all..

K la must get going..
Study2 =)

No matter how many times you tell me to go i won't
Cause you only said these when you're angry and your brain is not functioning at all
But the fact was you're never letting me go as much i don't want to let you go..
I love you B.. =)

2010-02-08T00:54:00.001+08:00

Saturday
Party party..
Sunday Quarrel
0.0

2010-02-04T22:49:00.002+08:00

B you are such a good actor and a cheater bug!
If only you're a bug i swear i'm gonna crush you..
Step you and squeeze you until everything is flat!!
Hmph!
Our relationship is just like other ppl..
Ups and down..
We do face a lot of downs sometimes..
Anyway stop being a cheater bug!!
You jolly well stop cheating i tell you
Before you die in my hands or i'll walk away!!
YOU BUG!!!! Sheesshhhh...

I'm bored!
MAMA I LOVE YOU!!
ADIK I LOVE YOU!!
hee..
Syaheda siao ting tong already!!
Anyway had soup with my sis..
Weee..I LIKE!!
=))

2010-02-04T20:38:00.007+08:00

Weee, no more bushy eyebrow..
I did my eyebrow today..
All thanks to B..
Haha..
I was telling him how bushy my eyebrow was and how much i hate it when it's thick
He know how upset and annoying i can get if i never did something to my eyebrow..
I'm capable of talking about it the whole day with a sad face on..
Jeezz irritating me..
He gave me $10 yesterday and told me to get it done..
=)
Now it's done B..
I use $5 only =) Be returning you another $5 tomorrow..
Hahaa..I know you don't have the heart to see me being upset about my eyebrow..
Or shall i say you don't want me to irritate you..Hee
Love you..
I got nothing to do after i get my eyebrow trim..
Thus i decided to cam whore
Anyway, i'm only left with one presentation tomorrow and finally i'll be done with it..
Revision starts today..
Full stop..

2010-02-02T17:12:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for keeping a lots of secrets from you..
It feels good after telling and confessing everything to you..
I know all those secrets i told hurt you but yet you accept it and forgive me..
I should have told you about those x of mine and guys friends whom try to get fresh with me..
I should have listen to you and ignore them..
I was stubborn and insisted they are just friends only..
Even though it was in the past i think i should tell about it now..
The reason is simple things like this always happens to me..
I'm scared..
I'm a girl and anything can happen to a girl..
I'm lucky to have you protecting me and keeping me safe all the time..
Thanks Boo and sorry for hurting you with all the truth I've told you..

PS: To all guy out there don't ever try to take advantage of any girl..
Retribution will happen to you back..
And never destroyed other people happiness it's really really a bad thing to do

Anyway i'm done with CPR now =)
Passed everything already but i'm left with theory test
Will be going jogging today to keep myself fit
Weee..

I love you more then myself and I'm sure whom i want to be with now..
I don't wish to change any more boyfriends..
I want to be with you and yes only you BONCIT =p

2010-02-01T23:30:00.005+08:00

My beb's <3

We're watching the same thing at the same time =)

I'm gonna shoot him!!

Sunday
I stay at home the whole day and rest well =)
And i Did alot of edit here and there for my pharmaco slides too..
Need to settle everything first..Heee..
On this very day B scream at me
If fact all the time he'll start screaming at me with his eyes wide open like it's going to pop out soon, when he screw something up..
LOL!I'm getting use to his screaming already..Hahaha
He's making me deaf one day..
He TAUGHT i misplace his 11b and ezlink which i strongly believe this time it wasn't my fault and true enough..
After he came back home again after having dinner with his family, he found it.. 0.0
SEE!! IT'S YOUR FAULT!!
HMPH!!
Gundu fart.. =p

Monday
Keep mom accompany at polyclinic first before going for lectures..
School end pretty early and i had to wait for B to end work..
Which was super boring..
Luckily i got a friend whom keep me accompany while waiting for him to end..
Had crab at his house and next home sweet home for me..
He was off to camp too =)
He is so into cartoon character kind of comforter cause his friends use that too for their beds in camp...
For now he's using black and white comforter and he's definitely gonna search his new comforter after his pay..
Cute la that gundu..
Now..
I want to study and do my ppt slides again and ZzzZz..
Schools starts a 1 tmrw =)

2010-01-31T17:42:00.003+08:00

Friday
Had a big fight with B and i was hopelessly waiting for him to cool down and talk to me..
In the end he didn't even message me or call me till the very next day..
He told me he was asleep the whole day..
Mmm..Nvm
Met up with daya later that evening and was planning what to do for tomorrow..
Had tom yum at her place and her dad told us he'll be making the food for our pinic =))
Thanks uncle..

Saturday
I tried calling B again hoping he'll answer my calls and he did..
Told him i was sorry and could we just end the cold war..
He was reluctant at first but in the end he forgave me..
After that i have to convince him to go pinic with me..
And he said fine (okay) , as he remember the promise he made about going pinic on Saturday with me..
Thanks B =))
Fetch daya from her house and then off to woodlands to take 966 together with Boo and Fizan..
Met up with nad and her bf but due to some issues they went off first..
=/
Everyone was angry at first cause we keep changing seat for nad bf sake but in the end they said they go to go 0.0
Nvm..
Played Frisbee and honestly i suck at playing Frisbee..
B had always been patient when it comes to teaching me new stuff and he taught me how to handle the Frisbee..
After so many attempt finally i can throw that Frisbee..haha
He bought slippers and he's happy about it..
Later on kina came and she went cycling..
The rest of us just played cards first and later on we went to played pool..
Thank you B for being a good host and talk to my friends BF..
You really help by making not making them feel weird or something..
I guess you learn socializing with people from me right?? Haha
In the evening, everyone went separate ways..
B and I clean ourselves first and then went Karaoke at Grand Link
I was surprise when he told me we're going Karaoke together..
I ask him why suddenly you agreed on going Karaoke and he told me cause i know you like and i want us to enjoy ourselves..
Honestly i feel like i was floating yesterday..
He really treat me well yesterday..
Done with karaoke we went to cck as he had to send me home..
This time he was the one waiting for the first train..
I keep him accompany under the void deck till 5.30 am
He was playing PSP and i was snoring at his lap already..
Haha =))

I'm glad my saturday went so well..
Everything was so sweet to me..
Thanks you all for had it going well..
I love you people <3

2010-01-28T20:10:00.007+08:00

I just like this fairy tale =)
This is the beauty and the beast..

Me:
I don't know what's wrong with me..
Can somebody tell me..
I'm exhausted with everything..
My diet plan go hay wire too but i did start jogging..
And thanks b for screaming and pushing me to ensure i did not STOP!
Whatever it is i must get back to my normal self..
Must be back on the track!!

Relationship:
I've been picking up fights with my Boncit for no reason sometimes..
And i get agitated very easily with his little2 movement or even his reaction towards me when i'm talking to him..
I know he's been making more girl friends but i don't know why it just get on my nerves each time i know he's does that..
I know he only chat with on the net or over the phone but..Hmm..
Well he did meet a few and end up i get to know..
Which definitely hurt like DUH!
But as long he know his limits..I think it's cool..Huh?
I don't know..
I must not bother so much..
Pfftttt...
However..
Each time i fell so hard on the ground he picked me up..
Each time he broke my heart he'll picked it and mend it back..
He's always there despite of everything that happen..
Anyway be going to TTSH with him tomorrow for his check up..
Hopefully everything will be fine..
Saturday..Pinic??
Sunday..Jogging (Exercise day)
I'm so gonna prove to you i can jog 2 rounds now without stopping..
Hopefully..if not you piggy back me again ok?? Hahah =p
PLUS B i call the insurance thing already and pretended to be your FIANCEE just to help you and ask every detail..
I always have to meddle and settle your affairs right? Hmmm...

School:
I'm done with only one presentation and 3 more to go..
CPR test done but i only need to do retest for one man CPR..
Talking about it only make me upset even more..
It's unfair that i only get ONE chance whereas other get 2..
They are so NOT standardizes.. ='(
I'm access by assistant director of nursing so hell yarh..
I'm happy that i did a good trial in front..And my mistake was i miscount the compression..mmm..
I think if i get the 2nd attempt i could pass..
But..Nvm..
The good thing is it's not being graded or anything..
We just need the CPR cert that's all..
Pharmacology presentation i'm in charge and so much to be done..
I might edit most of their slide and do some adjustment or add on's..
And if possible i want A's for my presentation..
My lappy is still pink and grey but only words can be seen and not colors..
It sucks BIG BIG TIME!!

Friends:
Every thing is going fine now..
I love them.. <3
Malah i'm too addicted to your ipod touch..Sally spa..
Haha..been playing with her ipod touch everyday during lectures =p
Thanks malah..
I think i might ask my parents to get me that as an advance birthday gift? haha..
My secondary school mates is doing an outing but it seems to be postponed..
Anyway keep me update okay? Hearts.. <3
N yarh why not we create a theme for that outing to make it more fun?? mmmm

As for now..
I think I'm going jogging and after that presentation slides..

To be successful, you need to taste failures first..
=_)

2010-01-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

I down with so much stuff now..
Exams, presentation and even practical too..
My headache seems to get worse nowadays..
Urgh!
I'm lucky to have groups members whom always help me up and correct me when i'm wrong..
Anyway all this is suffocating me..
Gosh!

Other aspect of life going well now..
But my mood is unpredictable nowadays..Yikes!
Mmmmm

2010-01-25T23:46:00.001+08:00

FUCK IT!!!!
FULLSTOP...

2010-01-16T02:13:00.004+08:00

It's our Anniversary <3

To Boo...
You meant so much to me..
So much more than i can ever expected actually..
We've been thru so much more than i can ever imagine..
We used harsh words to each other when we're mad but i know we didn't mean it..
Hurting each other only make us feel bad at the end of the day..
Peoples talk about us try pull us away but we're still together till now..
I don't know what I'm gonna do without you in me..
My whole normal routine will be different if you're not with me..
I get restless if you didn't text me or call me a least once a day..
I had that feeling when you're away in Tekong..
I know you feel bad for making me feel that way but it can't be help at that period of time right?
That was the hardest time too me..
I thought you wouldn't change for the better, i thought you're the same as the mens i met before whom promises me words only..
But you're not..
You told me the truth after you did something wrong or even after i found out..
Truth does still hurt and get me fuming mad as usual but i'm happy and grateful that you're being honest..
Not only that you're responsible..
Of course you have bad point too but you're good points make me forget about the bad one sometimes..
I just don't know how to describe this feeling I had towards you..
Honestly without you i can get lost or worst..
I'm not that strong being alone without you..
I'm happy the way we are..
And the future plan that we had made =)

I love you so much!
Happy 14 monthsary =)
Ps-you're the first guy i dated this long..

2010-01-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

Weee..
Finally i see the dark blue skies is clearing up =)
Honestly my eyes is dry now..
I don't think i can shed any more tears..
Well hp is for repair now..
So i'm not that contactable for now..
Can't believe,i'm getting clumsier as i grow older..
Tsk!

Exams and attachment date are out..
I'm left with one month starting from today..
Better open up my books and start doing something..
5 presentation coming up too..
Stress!!
N yarh i ace my biology practical this time..
But it's just the beginning..Need to buck up for the rest..

Anyway,i told b i might be away from him for 1 week when exams start cause i need to focus and he don't mind so hopefully everything will turn out fine..CROSS FINGER!
About him, his guard duty schedule is making me SOOOO SOOOO SOOO MAD! He always had guard duty over the weekends or even on special dates!
Oh well..never mind as long he's okay with the system i should be okay with it too..Mmmm =/

I need to get plenty of rest now..
Just recovered from major headache and fever..
Haha..Low immunity people like me..

Ps- If you're happy i'm happy too.. <3

Shaluuu i love your sweet rice thing!!Hehe..

2010-01-11T01:59:00.002+08:00

I'm so gonna stop emoing and throw my sorrows so far far away..
I did something yesterday and B is freaking dissapointed..
I don't know what's wrong with me but i keep hurting him repeatedly..
I keep rolling my eyes when he scold me or even scream at him and even bite or beat him when i feel like for no reason..
It's like i venting my anger, sadness..Like everything on him..
He just kept silent and constantly try to be there..
Oh god..
I've been cutting down on meeting him due to exams..
He told me it's fine if we're not meeting each other since i want to study..
All i know he'll miss me.. =)

Friends...
Everyone is facing a rough patch now..
We're trying to be there for each other..
It's like a disaster for everyone now..
Year 2 sems 2 is bad enough and having problem make it worse..
But we'll make it thru..

Family..
Still the same situation..

Finance..
Been saving up money to pay my bills.. =)

2010-01-10T03:49:00.001+08:00

i don't understand why family issues never end..
it seems to get worse and they keep blaming me..
they told me the reason the divorce issue came up cause of me..
Wth, what did i do?
Just because of me coming home late over the weekends?
It's not as if i'm running away from home or something..
I don't understand..
Even most of problem or my own darkest secret i keep it to myself..
The pain i'm feeling now is unspeakable..
I keep myself strong and not leading myself astray cause i wanna be a good and a better person..
I wanna change for the better..
I hide my personal problem from others due to certain reason..
I believe people have their own problems too..
oh god please lend me your strength for me to face all this..

B is totally confuse about my family situation now..
If he is already confuse how about me?

For now..
I just wanna be calm and void doing anything stupid..
Am controlling all the FUCKING emotions cause if it's not control things can be pretty bad..

Don't let your emotions control over you..
Let you control your emotions..

2010-01-10T03:49:00.000+08:00

i don't understand why family issues never end..
it seems to get worse and they keep blaming me..
they told me the reason the divorce issue came up cause of me..
Wth, what did i do?
Just because of me coming home late over the weekends?
It's not as if i'm running away from home or something..
I don't understand..
Even most of problem or my own darkest secret i keep it to myself..
The pain i'm feeling now is unspeakable..
I keep myself strong and not leading myself astray cause i wanna be a good and a better person..
I wanna change for the better..
I hide my personal problem from others due to certain reason..
I believe people have their own problems too..
oh god please lend me your strength for me to face all this..

B is total confuse about my family situation now..
If he is already confuse how about me?

For now..
I just wanna be calm and void doing anything stupid..
Am controlling all the FUCKING emotions cause if it's not control things can be pretty bad..

Don't let your emtions control over you..
Let you control your emotions..

2010-01-08T04:34:00.005+08:00

Surprise Surprise!
I had actually started studying for my biology..
I did write notes but it's seems a lot to write..
Maybe i'll just read up repeatedly to memorize it..
Oh well..
I'm not that fast learner and i really want to pass my Bio paper this time..
='(

Today i did my house chores and did study too
Mission accomplished..hehe =)

Went out later in the evening and had dinner with mom, my sis and B =)
He was force by me to have dinner with my family..
I told him to be FAIR!!
As most of the time i give in to him and spent time with his family..
This time it's his turn to spent time with my family..
He kept silent all the way just now..
He's not like me..He's bit shy..Hahaha!!
Mom told him 3 things and she give him a green light to scold me if i'm to stubborn..
Esh!
Well, both of us did plan for the future..
Date:12/2/12
That can only happen in many conditions..One of it was to have a proper career..
He was telling me that both of us better earn more then 2k, if not it's hard to survive and also we have to work hard..
Anyway it was only plans, it can be change right?
He told me he still want to study maybe..So let's just see how first.. =)

One thing i really like about him now..
He never stop me from studying and pursuing my dream which was to get a diploma first and then a degree..
In fact the moment i told him i got exams he just told me to study wisely and have proper sleep if not i end up sick again and again..

My focus is more to my studies and resting time now..
Not forgetting to have fun also =)

About family..Mmmm..
I'll just have to wait and see the outcome..

It's 5am now..
I'm going to bed

Things will get in time..
Loves <3

My notes!

2010-01-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

My theory for paper for skills is over now..
Next week, skills practical examination (injection) and biology practical..
So much exams stuff going on now..
After exams will damn packed with presentation and then upcoming semester exams again..
How shitty can my schedule get..
After exams attachment!!
Do i have time to really chilex during holidays?
Yes and No =)

My lappy is sill down! Argh!!
I hate it..
Everything so blurry now..It's super bad for my eyesight now..
But no choice i still have to use it right?

Friends and relationship wise going well..
But family wise..
It's just get much more worse then expected sometimes..
I have to live with it and try to overcome the painful situation..
There's always good and bad in life to create a BALANCE right?

Thursday be staying home to study and do house chores..
Friday might be having the same plan as thursday..
Saturday, maybe going prawning with B and his bro and fiance too..
Let's just see how the plan go..

Since i'm going out over the weekends, i have to study during the weekdays..
BALANCE!!
Haha..wat's up with the balance thing..
LOL!

For today, i just wanna hit the bed and sleep..
Slept at 4am yesterday to study and woke up at 7.30..
SO sleepy ='(

I love your touch =)
Muaks! Nights <3

2010-01-04T05:42:00.002+08:00

Been unlucky in life currently..
Too much of internal conflicts at home..
I can't stand it..
I simply had nightmare every night cause of this and end up crying like a little girl..
I keep waking my bf in middle of the night and told him about it..
He comfort me so that i can get back to sleep again..
=)

Since school has reopen now..
I'm gonna be busy with all sorts of things..
I'm off the track during holidays..Period!
Ergh!
Must be back on to task again..

SYAHEDA stop the holiday mood and come back to the world!

2010-01-02T02:32:00.006+08:00

Cold Rock ice-cream is Yummy!!
I had vanilla and cheesecake with brownie..
Wohoo!!
I think I've been having ice-cream almost everyday..
Haha..

Well what i did today
Woke up in the afternoon with 3 messages from Bie..
He keep asking me to wake up and calling me Pig!
Cause i still haven't wake up when it's in the afternoon already..
I really sleep like a log =p

Did house chores as mom was screaming already..Hee
And off to Queensway..
Mom drove us there and it was funny the way mom drove her friend car..
Lol..
She bought me a new Levis jeans and a hairband..
I like..
Then we went to Ikea to buy boxes and off to Chai Chee to celebrate my cousin birthday at a restaurant..

The food was not too bad..
I simply love the chili crabs =)
Ummmm..
My cousin was super cute..
It's her birthday and her celebration was only a short one..
She keep asking me where are you going after this..
I told her maybe home..
Why you have plans? i ask her..
She said no..
She look super sad when nobody is bringing her out her birthday as her fiance was ill..
Thus i told her let go town and walk around..
She was super happy la..
Haha =)
I was happy to spent time with my family..

Bie was asking me what time i'm going home..
I guess he's worried..
I used to lie and was super bad..
But now..I've change i want to be faithful to you.. =)
I miss you!!
He ask if i want to go clubbing tomorrow..
Mmm..Maybe i would..And end up laughing and smiling and giggling like mad women again..
LOL!
He is camp and snoring already..
He's tired guard duty for 24hr..
Meeting him at his house tomorrow to wake him up..
Smelly Boo2..

Anyway pictures time!!

2010-01-01T02:58:00.002+08:00

It'a new year already..
I've made my resolution for this year already =)
I'm happy that i'm get to see this new year together with Bie..
But i can't celebrate or watch fireworks with him today cause he is in camp now ='(
Got guard duty..Not fair..
I always catch fireworks with him..
What to do..
But thanks love for the new year message..
I'll put our unpleasant past aside..

I meet him for a while today..
He came over at my place and end up i see him snoring at my bed while i was getting ready to go out..
Haha..
He's tired..Army really worn him out..
But i really miss him.. ='(

Oh well, today i went over to grandma places and chit chat with my aunts..
Daania was there..
I was teaching her how to kiss..
Notti me..haha =p
I love her...Baby daania
Had mango pudding and it's super delicious =)
Yummy i like..

After that i went lot 1 to shop for a beg..
Haha..
Did window shopping again but i'm not gonna buy any more clothes till boo get his pay..
We're going to shop again after his pay cause he want to find a new shoes..haha =)

It's cousin bdae!!
Happy birthday!!
We're gonna celebrate later on this evening..
I'll update more soon..
Haha..

I'm happy to have you all along..
You told me we'll start a new with new resolution this new year =)

2009-12-31T02:22:00.003+08:00

Woke up in the morning..
And i stare blankly at the walls in my room..
Mom rang us up to make sure we're AWAKE in the morning as we're going to TOWN =)
The whole day the phone rang..So annoying..
They disturb my beauty sleep ='(

Plans for that day, SHOPPING! catch a movie and Home sweet home..
Finally i've watch Alvin and the Chipmunks!!

Weeeee =)
Someone was suppose to watch with me but in the end..
I watch it with my family which is better i guess..free tickets..Hahah =p
Hmm..what did i shop today?
A leopard shirt and a jacket..That's all..
Mom bought Boo a jacket too..
It was only $10!! CHEAP!!
Haha =)
Did window shopping most the time today..
Boo don't allow me to shop for now ='(
I'll wait for your pay! And i'm dragging you to go shopping with me! HMPH!!

Anyway, i did had fun today and i had spent quality time with my mom and sis..
There's one conversation we had that is super serious and no JOKE!
Mom told us to be mentally prepare as she might be going to the court anytime as she wants a DIVORCE!
Oh well..
If you think that's the best for you and there's no other way out for this marriage then..
We'll just support you..
I know you're health is getting worse due to all those CONFLICTS we had..
And i know you can't stand dad anymore..
Haiz..
I'm already prepare for the worse as i've faced so much bad things in life and i'm still here standing..

Boo is getting on my nerves..
He don't want to have a conversation with me for no reason and hang up on me like don't know how many times..
Send him messages but no reply..
Call me names some more! MORON!
I HAD ENOUGH OF DAMN BLOODY GAMES FOR TODAY!

If never change for tomorrow..
I'm gonna kill you and then ignore you!
Ergh!

-There's always a lot of challenges you have to face in life-

2009-12-30T03:41:00.005+08:00

I had a bad day on monday..
Fought with parents which i don't wish to tell here..
It's too personal..
All i can say it is damn painful..
Hmmm..

Went to school today to practice..
Practice practice..
To be perfect.. =)

I'm tired now..
Bye People..

Heal those unhealed wounds..
Let's work things out together..

I'm in a BAD ROMANCE ..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrO4YZeyl0I