Exams is so over now and yes it feels so much better..I realize that since the day I started this course till now I am so prone to falling sick without fail..immunity is super bad n stress level is so high..I wonder am I learning way to much than other people should do in that particular course they are in..well supposingly nursing is meant for A-lvl students but who on earth will have the courage and patience towards all those grossy stuff and uncoporative patients at times..in this line u can really meet a lot of people with attitude..a friend ask told I am not healthy..I know that dear but I can't help it..I am under huge amount of stress and I am busy with work and school pluz I totally lost of appetite..I don't find a need to eat sometimes..I love binge eating during exmas period when I was in secondary school but now everything change.. The stress I am facing is not the same as my secondary school time..oh wells stress can be good and bad =) past few days I have yet to meet him and today had world war right before exams but at the end of the we're fine.. Sometimes I feel damn stupid to fall in love the word love really blinds people sometimes.. People around me said I deserve better guys I know that too but when it comes to the word love back again it's just hard.. I love him a lot that I am willing to accept his flaws and weakness.. He's been busy with soccer since he is playing for safsa..that he's area of intrest soccer thus I have to respect that and support him =) am still waiting for my pay now suppose to be in on the first but delay and till Now it's not in.. Told him I wanna shop he said ok, this time he gave a green light to me and allow me to shop but I am reluctant to do that I wanna save as I badly wanna travel next yr! I think I'll just get a dress or top with one shoe only and that's it! Haha I think this is long enough that all for now We tend to make the wrong decision but never think it's bad cause it will always be a learning process for us to be stronger and better