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I'm currently studying in NYP (Nursing)
I love kids and sweets and choco too!!
I love to dance and i love to party..
I lead a simple life with ups and downs.. LIFE IS A LIKE A ROLLER COASTER <3
I just can't seem to stop loving you MUHD RAHMAD BIN HAMZAH! yes, i was pissed and hut when you keep calling my names esp STUPID! Yesterday when i bring up this issue to you.. I'm glad you could accept how i feel about it and how i want you to change..See, we can always talk amicably when we're not angry..Control your anger okay hubby.. I know we can get pretty cranky at times..
Met up with him for like 30s just to pass his stuff.. Why 30s cause they fear he might run away.. I really hate his army life.. Some people say, he deserve that punishment, esp his brother.. Haiz.. But 3 weeks is too much to bear.. I'm outside and he's inside.. Thanks to this no more going home late or going out over the weekends.. It sucks!
Anyway, i'll be working today.. For the first time in my 4 years working experience i'm working under FNB!! OMG!! It's pretty scary to me.. Plus it's something new.. I need the money to settle certain things first.. It's a 1 month assignment thing.. So yarh.. I'll just work during my school holidays..
Good news! Exams is over.. Finally i had my proper sleep yesterday.. Full 8hrs.. Damn shiok!! I'm excited to go Sentosa with my classmate this MONDAY.. Wee...An outing with the girls =)) Will be having another before school reopen too.. No forgetting my paramedic YOG training in April.. OMG going year 3 this April.. I'm gonna work hard and i want to graduate next year.. Yes, I'm gonna pursue to degree..insyallah But i got to work first.. In order to make certain plans happen and i need to look after my sister in future.. Due to some internal problems.. I'm learning to be strong to overcome all this.. And thank you to lovely people out there whom help me and lend me a listening ear went i needed one esp my peeps =) Love you people.. <3 Pictures were taken years back.. I want to go the ZOOO.. Waiting for B to bring me there.. He gave me his card yesterday to renew his season parking and the rest of the money for me to spent it on my shoes.. I'm just gonna take $10, the rest is your's.. No matter how many times he try to stop splurging on me he just can't =) Since i'm working now, it's my turn to do that on you.. We'll be fair..
I got to go.. Want to watch cartoon.. Btw my mom bought me blueberry muffin it's delicious.. I LIKE!!!
9:26 AM
Friday, February 26, 2010Y
"According To You"
According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless, I can't do anything right. According to you I'm difficult, hard to please, forever changing my mind. I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time, even if it would save my life. According to you. According to you.
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head. According to him I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted. Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it, so baby tell me what I got to lose. He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you.
According to you I'm boring, I'm moody, you can't take me any place. According to you I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away. I'm the girl with the worst attention span; you're the boy who puts up with that. According to you. According to you.
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head. According to him I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted. Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it, so baby tell me what I got to lose. He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you.
I need to feel appreciated, like I'm not hated. oh... no... Why can't you see me through his eyes? It's too bad you're making me decide.
According to me you're stupid, you're useless, you can't do anything right. But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head. According to him I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted. Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it, baby tell me what I got to lose. He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you. (you, you) According to you. (you, you)
According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless, I can't do anything right.
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!! FUCK YOU!! TO YOU I"M ALWAYS STUPID!! ANSWER THIS? IS IT STUPID TO ASK A QUESTION?? IS IT STUPID TO TELL YOU CERTAIN THINGS WHICH COMES IN MY WAY?? IS IT STUPID OF ME TO STAY FAITHFUL?? AND IS IT STUPID OF ME TO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT YOU??? Keep telling me I'm nothing to you.. Well the day will come when I'll say you're nothing to me too.. I'm FUCKING PISSED AND HURT!! FUCK OFF!!
12:28 AM
Tuesday, February 23, 2010Y
Syaheda is having irregular sleeping patterns.. Her body is non functioning well.. Her physical state is going haywire.. Her mental state of mind is worst!! All she can say is her BRAINS is EXPLODING!! BOMB!!!! 2 more to go.. And she's done and over with!
What is she doing now? Sneezing! Ahhhh CHhhhoooo Going to shower and read her notes first before snoozing.. What is she thinking about now? Her Hubby! She miss him so much!! Other then that, she's dying to end this miserable situation!
That's all syaheda wants to blog!
PS: I hate it when Singaporean get super inconsiderate.. ESP in the morning train ride When i say EXCUSE ME! You just need to move aside and let me walk.. Not just stand there and wait till i push you or even said that phrase twice using a harsher and loud tone! EEE......TOooopPpppiiiiIiiDDDD!!!
12:59 PM
Monday, February 22, 2010Y
I'm using every single brain cells in my head now to memories!! And to understand.. I can't believe I'm having 4 paper straight this week And all of it is a heavy module.. Mmm.. Plus it's in the morning!! If i go to bed i'll end up missing my exams cause i might overslept Oh god.. What i'm studying now.. Is Biology!! Honestly i don't have high expectation.. I just want a pass that's all.. =/
My world has been like a roller coaster.. Hee.. Up and down.. Had a tiff with bf but we clear it up.. It was sweet when he said sorry =) Anyway.. I' m so in LOVE with baby daania!! Heee.. Chubby pooh bear! daania =)) Study study now.. Blogging is so sidetrack! Hee..
XOxo..muaks!
12:20 AM
Thursday, February 18, 2010Y
"Miss You Like Crazy"
I used to call you my girl I used to call you my friend I used to call you the love The love that I never had When I think of you I don't know what to do When will I see you again [Chorus:] I miss you like crazy Even More than words can say I miss you like crazy Every minute of every day Girl I'm so down when your love's not around I miss you, miss you, miss you I miss you like crazy You are all that I want You are all that I need Can't you see how I feel Can't you see that my pain's so real When I think of you I don't know what to do When will I see you again [Chorus]
Studied at Mac Donalds yesterday with my lil sis,dayah and faheem.. Thanks people for keeping my accompany.. Well, the actual plan for that day was to meet up with B in the noon.. But something happen to B in camp.. That's why he will be away from me for 3 weeks.. Mmmm... It's hard honestly being away from him.. So much misunderstanding and fight.. Ergh! I miss him alots.. Back to the story, me and dayah is so in LOVE with the fusion cheesecake.. SEDAP!! YUMMY!! I like, I like.. After studying at mac we went under a void deck Since Lot 1 Mac is not 24hrs.. I continued studying there but first i have to send my sis home.. Heee.. Under the void deck , it's more to lepak and study session.. Eem was drawing and playing games with dayah.. This is what EEm draw on dayah
Till a bunch of YP came and asked us to drink BEER with them! Like WTH! The funny thing was that BOY ask me.. Are you studying for O'level? I looked at him and laugh!!! O"Level uh..And it gets even funnier when he ask if we're schooling tomorrow? LOL!! I guess all of us look young to them =) Haha Eem was like i'm a NS men now..hence i'm not schooling now.. And dayah, "like hello..she's is in poly now.." Hee..Kids.. When i look at those kids.. It reminds me of my naughty past.. But somehow i wasn't to their extend..Hee.. That's all i want to blog.. Continue Studying now.. Love him Miss him
2:38 PM
Wednesday, February 17, 2010Y
Boo will be away from me for 3 weeks ='( Stupid NS life.. Which mean i cannot meet him for 3 weeks.. I really feels like his BMT time ='( Nevermind.. Since i'm having exams soon.. I should shift my focus.. Study Study Study Be a slave to my books now!! Heee =)
3 weeks will be over soon.. 9 march will be next date i'm meeting him.. Will be counting down to that day.. Mmm... 20days more I miss you Boo..
5:32 PM
Presenting Baby Daania Enjoy dancing with her =) I love her =)) Super Cute
12:49 PM
Happy 15monthsary Boo =)
I'm glad we make it through again.. 16/02/2010
I really had a good long break and it's a fruitful one to me.. Valentine Day Catch Valentine Day movie and we actually celebrate it 12am Cause i was with him since Saturday(played kite =) ).. We had no presents for each other.. But the best present we had was the love we had towards each other.. It might no necessarily be celebrated in a romantic manner.. To me the thought that counts and how he treat me and pampered me the whole valentine morning has touch me and really make me feel contented.. Thank you B.. It was a simple one but yet fun.. Not forgetting we played left for dead 2 on that day.. We did not meet up in the evening of valentine day as we're out with our own family
Pictures of playing kite =)
Our anniversary Did celebrate it 12am again since i was with him Monday Went to changi chalet to BBQ and went on fishing.. They caught squid and fish.. It was quiet big.. 2am went home and his parents we're the one sending me home.. Hee..thank you =) Evening after dinner with my family meet up with B again.. B fixed my bed already =)) Weee.. Send him off to camp and now.. I'm gonna study first and then sleep..
Did had a chance to meet up with baby daania for a few days too =)) She so cute! teaching her to hold her bottle =)
2:35 AM
Thursday, February 11, 2010Y
How dumb can i get...
Lol!!
Thanks to dayah now i know why i cannot change my fonts!!
Hahaha..
Bodoh peh syaheda..
Dayah tkmo lang rahmad
Pinky promise =))
4:30 PM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010Y
Everything is back to normal =) Plus he's been giving me wake up calls telling to get up and go to school.. Hee..He's sweet for now..Haha..
I'm so hot temper today.. Sorry to anyone whom i keep screaming at or being harsh towards.. Didn't mean it..But i'm pretty easy to be triggered now.. Anyway to that UNITY SECONDARY INDIAN girl just now.. You're damn!!!Tututututututut... Don't know how to wait and i'm so huge yet you cannot see arh!! CB! Blind arh! Push me then keep cutting my queue some more.. Not once eh miss twice eh!!! You go to school right? What you learn in school then? Stuuuuuppppiiidddddd!!!!
As for now i can hear people singing and him/her voice cannot make it.. Sing loudly some more.. Lower down the volume la.. Even the kids under the void deck playing is screaming so loudly asking you to shut up!
I'm going to clean myself up and sleep first be studying at night.. B is busy with guard duty.. He has a lot of guard duty this month and next.. And those dates happens to be on special ocassion days Eg. Valentine day, my annivarsary and days i'm free and even our Saturday ='( I don't likey at all..
K la must get going.. Study2 =)
No matter how many times you tell me to go i won't Cause you only said these when you're angry and your brain is not functioning at all But the fact was you're never letting me go as much i don't want to let you go.. I love you B.. =)
5:49 PM
Monday, February 8, 2010Y
Saturday Party party.. Sunday Quarrel 0.0
12:54 AM
Thursday, February 4, 2010Y
B you are such a good actor and a cheater bug! If only you're a bug i swear i'm gonna crush you.. Step you and squeeze you until everything is flat!! Hmph! Our relationship is just like other ppl.. Ups and down.. We do face a lot of downs sometimes.. Anyway stop being a cheater bug!! You jolly well stop cheating i tell you Before you die in my hands or i'll walk away!! YOU BUG!!!! Sheesshhhh...
I'm bored! MAMA I LOVE YOU!! ADIK I LOVE YOU!! hee.. Syaheda siao ting tong already!! Anyway had soup with my sis.. Weee..I LIKE!! =))
10:49 PM
Weee, no more bushy eyebrow.. I did my eyebrow today.. All thanks to B.. Haha.. I was telling him how bushy my eyebrow was and how much i hate it when it's thick He know how upset and annoying i can get if i never did something to my eyebrow.. I'm capable of talking about it the whole day with a sad face on.. Jeezz irritating me.. He gave me $10 yesterday and told me to get it done.. =) Now it's done B.. I use $5 only =) Be returning you another $5 tomorrow.. Hahaa..I know you don't have the heart to see me being upset about my eyebrow.. Or shall i say you don't want me to irritate you..Hee Love you.. I got nothing to do after i get my eyebrow trim.. Thus i decided to cam whore Anyway, i'm only left with one presentation tomorrow and finally i'll be done with it.. Revision starts today.. Full stop..
8:38 PM
Tuesday, February 2, 2010Y
I'm sorry for keeping a lots of secrets from you.. It feels good after telling and confessing everything to you.. I know all those secrets i told hurt you but yet you accept it and forgive me.. I should have told you about those x of mine and guys friends whom try to get fresh with me.. I should have listen to you and ignore them.. I was stubborn and insisted they are just friends only.. Even though it was in the past i think i should tell about it now.. The reason is simple things like this always happens to me.. I'm scared.. I'm a girl and anything can happen to a girl.. I'm lucky to have you protecting me and keeping me safe all the time.. Thanks Boo and sorry for hurting you with all the truth I've told you..
PS: To all guy out there don't ever try to take advantage of any girl.. Retribution will happen to you back.. And never destroyed other people happiness it's really really a bad thing to do
Anyway i'm done with CPR now =) Passed everything already but i'm left with theory test Will be going jogging today to keep myself fit Weee..
I love you more then myself and I'm sure whom i want to be with now.. I don't wish to change any more boyfriends.. I want to be with you and yes only you BONCIT =p
5:12 PM
Monday, February 1, 2010Y
My beb's <3
We're watching the same thing at the same time =)
I'm gonna shoot him!!
Sunday I stay at home the whole day and rest well =) And i Did alot of edit here and there for my pharmaco slides too.. Need to settle everything first..Heee.. On this very day B scream at me If fact all the time he'll start screaming at me with his eyes wide open like it's going to pop out soon, when he screw something up.. LOL!I'm getting use to his screaming already..Hahaha He's making me deaf one day.. He TAUGHT i misplace his 11b and ezlink which i strongly believe this time it wasn't my fault and true enough.. After he came back home again after having dinner with his family, he found it.. 0.0 SEE!! IT'S YOUR FAULT!! HMPH!! Gundu fart.. =p
Monday Keep mom accompany at polyclinic first before going for lectures.. School end pretty early and i had to wait for B to end work.. Which was super boring.. Luckily i got a friend whom keep me accompany while waiting for him to end.. Had crab at his house and next home sweet home for me.. He was off to camp too =) He is so into cartoon character kind of comforter cause his friends use that too for their beds in camp... For now he's using black and white comforter and he's definitely gonna search his new comforter after his pay.. Cute la that gundu.. Now.. I want to study and do my ppt slides again and ZzzZz.. Schools starts a 1 tmrw =)
Pictures were taken years back..
9:26 AM
Chubby pooh bear! daania =))
=)
This is what EEm draw on dayah
teaching her to hold her bottle =)
