When i'm home nowadays, i felt as if it's no longer the same as last time..
Everyone seems to be doing their own things..
Mom was home late almost every weekdays and busy working..
Dad staying at home UNEMPLOYED! and always blame me or find fault..
I know i'm a good daughter to you..
You always name me a slut, bitch and a lots more..
It hurts but yet i told myself that i'm gonna bothered to much about it..
I'm a grown up i don't understand why you can't even be opened minded sometimes..
Mom and dad always quarrel over some issues sometimes..
Forever fighting and the outcome of the quarrel is simple..
He blame it on me telling me i'm the reason why it start..
Whereby i did nothing to start the spark to those quarrel..
And Thanks to dad i have to search and desperately look for jobs and save as much as i can to support myself..
He's a father and a men..
Yet he don't wish to work..Picky about jobs..
Can't i even just enjoy my teenage life and be a spoil brat sometimes..?
I don't feel like i was pampered by him anymore..
Here i'm typing this with my tears flowing..
I tried to immune myself again today when he said all those harsh words but it seems so difficult that i broke down somehow..
So what if everything seems okay outside but at home everything is falling..

I don't wish to be home anymore sometimes..
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