Idoit..
I hate my blog..can't change front and colors again ='(
But after changing the template at least i can upload pictures..
Wehehee =p
I LIKE!!
Gonna upload pictures for you all to see..
And to loves..
Sorry i was snoozing all the way yesterday..
Feel damn shag lately..
Heee =p
I was kind of evil cause they've been calling and smsing me but i replied them 2hours later..hee
A good rest for me yesterday..

And Today am going back to work again..
Plus i feel damn bloody now..EEEEEEEEEE!!!

I miss my girlfriends so badly..
Hmm ='(
Love you girls..
XOXO

Ps: Should i dye my hair?

Time to uploads picture now..
Enjoy =)
This my raya pictures =)

This girl is my one and only sister..
She's my very own bestfriend =)
I LOVE HER!!

Busy busy busy..
Been down with attachment and exams again..
This is damn exhausting..
Retake 2 papers and today i'm left with one..
Bio saq was okay but mcq is a killer to me..haha.. =p
Attachment..
Case study not done yet..
ERGH!

Had fun over the weekends with my loves one..
Hee..
Saturday out raye and sunday with rahmad..
For the first time ever we did not fought on that day..
=)

Family,i hate my dad..
Fullstop!

PS:To my girls
Sorry beb's i really can't afford to jalan raye weekdays due to attachment..
Super sorry..

"Change Me"
(feat. Akon)

[Chorus:]
You know that I love you
You know that I love you
You know that I need you
You're my air that I breathe you
You know that I love you
You know that I love you
You know that I need you
You're my air that I breathe you

So don't try to change me
So don't try to change me
Why would you change me
Why would you change me (baby I will let you go)
So don't try to change me
So don't try to change me
Why would you change me
Baby I will let you go

You know I
I had my
My vices
You said you could handle it
But you lied
Cause you tried to change me
Mold me, Nooooo
Everything you loved before
You don't love no more
Everything I did for you
You don't want no more
Maybe I'm not quite the girl you been lookin for
But you agreed
So how can you not see

[Chorus]

Why must I
Decide on
Weather I love you are the world
You met me
You fell deeply
In love with me
So what is the problem now
Everything you loved before
You don't love no more
Everything I did for you
You don't want no more
Maybe I'm not quite the man you been lookin for
But you agreed
So how could you not see

[Chorus]

Why would you wanna change me
Arrange me
Is that what you call love
Maybe you need somebody different
Somebody who fits you like a glove
But don't change
Everything that you love
About me
When you love them

Firstly, i would like to thanks fizan for the henna drawing..
He drew it nicely on my hand and it turn out to be perfect..
It was tough for him at first cause KPO me choose a complicated design for him to draw..
But it the end he made it..
Thumbs up =)
He's definitely a good artist but wasted..
He just let his talent go to waste..

Finally I bought my earring after a long search here and there..
And it cost $10..
But i get it for free cause someone bought it for me..
Wee..thanks =)
I just got fetish for big earrings nowadays..
All thanks to my long hair..
Heeee..

Went threading on Friday and..
My eyebrow look a bit fine..
I swear Indian threading is much much more painful compare to the Chinese plucking of eyebrow..
Overall both have pro and cons right?

Spongebob is my favorite character all time..
And...
Someone gave me a spongebob teddy yesterday..
Thanks again..

Feels damn pampered now after the rough moments i had previously..
Ergh!

Sim card was confiscated by dad today..
So i'm making a public message here..
I'm not using 822....for now..
Anything just dial my house phone number =)

I'm enjoying all the good foods now..
Plus at this rate i think i can gain some weight..
But i don't care..
I'm happy and that matters to me more =)

To my MR..
I know you want to wear the same as me this year..
And even go an extend of searching the whole geylang for it again..
You already found the exact same color as my raye clothing but there were no size..
Hmmm..Don't be dishearten okay?

I hearts you =)

Lastly..
To all my friends..
Selamat hari raya..
I'm sorry if i've been a bitch which i know i did..
Am really really sorry..
Sorry =)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE!!
=)

I'm going out with dayah tomorrow!
Be trimming our eyebrow together =)
Search for earrings and then off too geylang =)
I'm bored ='(
Buu huuu
Yeah2 nak RAYA!!
Winks

Okay..everyone is taking about Hari Raya now..
Hmm..
Well.. as for me everything is in order..
Shoes:
I've already bought a new pair of platform 2 month ago and i don't think i'm going to buy another one for raya..
Reason simple, that pair of platform is still in tip-top condition and i only wore it like twice?
I won't waste money on getting new pairs of shoe..
Raya clothing checked..
I got 3 Raya clothing this year..Plus none of baju raya is ready made okay!
Bluek!
Earrings i'm gonna get it on Friday!
Red color! Sexy =p
Rings and bracelet..Not gonna purchase any because i have to wear gold for that items..
I swear i might give a sulky face when my mom force me to put it on..
Eeeee...
What else..My room..
Just need to change the curtains and my bedsheets..
And I'm ready for raya!!
Bad news!
3rd day of Raya attachment ='(
Hmph!

I love you i love you i love you!!
Happy Anniversary!

Cascada

"Bad Boy"

Remember the feelings, remember the day
My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away
This moments I knew I would be someone else
My love turned around and I fell
Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you in my life again
Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you again
No I don't need you again

You once made this promise
To stay by my side
But after some time you just pushed me aside
You never thought that a girl could be strong
Now I'll show you how to go on

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you in my life again

Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you again
No I don't need you again


"Miracle"

Boy meets girl
You were my dream,my world
But i was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it's true
I'm still in love with you

I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me

Miracle... Miracle [echo]

Day and night
I'm always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know it's true
I'm still in love with you

I need a miracle...
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me


"Everytime We Touch"

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.

If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me

As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
Which seems so hard to be done
He's the reason for the teardrops
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

I hate how much I love you boy
Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore

Don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
I know you're only sorry you got caught

And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

It's doesn't seems to be easy to let it go..
Each time i close my eyes..
I saw you and what took place yesterday..
I even had nightmares and end up crying..
I just can't forget what happen but i can forgive..
I don't know why you're still the king of my heart..
Tomorrow was suppose to be our anniversary..
I know you realize that too..
But..
I don't know..
I been locking myself up in the bed room..
I don't want to go out for now..
Lips are still swollen..

Am i that easy for others to take advantage off?
Hmm..

I can't believe what you did to me..
I was actually abused by the men i love..
You really hurt me..
Yes i did slap you and call you names too..
But that doesn't give you the right to do this to me..
You make me feel so scared of you..
From my face all the way to my toe there's bruises..
My mom and sis is freaking unhappy..
They say i was dumb..
You called me a bitch..
You told me i was cheap..
Thank you for saying all those harsh words..
I really got nothing to say..
A lot of people is telling me to make a police report and charge you..
But i just don't have the heart to do that..
All i hope now is that..
You'll realize your mistake and open your eyes wide
I love you more then i love myself..
But now..
I don't know..
I talk to the girl you were contacting now..
She said she had no idea you were attach..
What's that for?
All i can say now..
Thank you for everything..
You'll always be in my memories..

I don't know if i should cry, be angry or upset..
All emotions are mixed into one..
You continuously denies everything whereby the truth is right in front of me..
Don't think I'm dumb and not knowing anything..
You are super cruel by doing this to me
What else do you want?
Human never satisfy with what they have i guess..
Am I'm being too soft hearted and naive..

One minute the happiness was the there..
Another minute it was gone..
This life isn't it?
If doing whatever you are doing now make you happy..
Let it be..
Hoping you realize that one day if I'm gone and don't wish to be back..
I'm gone forever and can never be yours again..
Open your eyes and look around..

I'm a simple and average girl..
Whom does mistake and take time to learn it..
Guide me through the way..
Soon enough you know..
I'm learning things much more then you might expected..

Pretending..
Pretending..
Pretending..

My adik is coming home tomorrow..
Feeling so gay to think about it..
=)

Boink Boink Boink!
Okay..I'm super crazy now..
Don't know why i love this words a lots..
My blog totally suck~
Can't even upload pictures and change fronts again..
HMPH!
Been cleaning up my room and house..
Wehehehe..
It's clean now..
I like!
Nothing much to do already at night..

Boo is out the whole day..
He gave a shock of my life this morning..
I was soundly asleep until 10am when i check my messages and missed calls..
All of it was from him..
He was referred to TTSH due to his bad headache..
Luckily he was not admitted..
Despite of his condition my Mr stubborn men still went out..
He went to his friend place first as..
His friend passed away yesterday..Hmm..
Don't be sad kay boo?
I'm sure ALLAH loves him more..
Then he went to jurong and geylang..
Did told him to search for my hari raya earrings..
Hope he did not forget..

Adik will be back on MONDAY!!
Yeapy!
She's home finally..
I really really miss her..

About me..
I'm loving my life now..
Feel so blessed to have all my loves one around me now..
=)
My upcoming attachment: all of it will be at the rehab center and SHS
Hmm..
I'm super lazy to be out for clinical..
Ergh!

Yesterday gadoh..
Today pon gadoh but tk teruk la sgt kn
Hahah

I happy la sgt today..
Yesterdae he ordi promise me to bring me out today and he did..
The plan was to go ikea then geylang but in the end change of plan..
We went sim lim instead to search for MP3 first..
He bought creative zen pink colour..
Haha..
Honestly he bought pink cause i told him too..
He know i love pink..
He wanted grey but i told him it's not nice at all..
I still prefer the pink and black colour..
He said his friend has black and don't wish to owe the same colour..
Therefore he bought pink..wehehe..
I LIKE!!
Next went to bugis and he bought t-shirts..
Lawa ler t-shirt nyer..
I wanted to buy a dress initially but yuck not nice..
So tk jadi la
Next geylang!
Food feast..
Hahah..
He layan all my cravings..
Good!
I keep eat and eat and eat..
Thanks Boo!
Jalan2 here and there..
Make me so excited to celebrate my hari raya!!
Whehehehe =)
K la i want to watch upin and ipin..
I like!!

I love you boo..
Finally i get to spent time with you..
Thank you for bringing me out..
Am so happy and grateful =)

Tiada guna kau berjanji
Untuk setia menemani
Hatiku yang telah terluka
Kerna dustamu
Semuanya telah berakhir
Antara hatiku dan hatimu
Tak kan ada cinta
Seperti yang dulu

Hati ku telah pun mu hancur kan seketika dahulu
Jangan beritahu ku yang kamu akan ulangi sekali lagi
Cukup dengan sikap mu yang tidak mengerti bahawa ku benci melihat mu berfoya bersama wanita lain
Cukup letih diri ku bertanya siapa kah mereka pada dirimu
Boleh kah lagi ku mendengar jawapan mu dan alasan mu
Ku tidak yakin lagi
Keyakinan itu sudah hilang kerna sikap mu
Beritahu la padaku bahawa ia akan berakhir
Pejamkan mata ku agar ku tidak bisa melihat apa-apa
Hati ku sudah tawar dengan ini semua
Ingin ku putus asa untuk jatuh cinta lagi

Time to crap again..
This week one my dearest person is so away from me..
NUR AISHA BTE ABDUL AZIZ..
Also known as NUR SYAHEDA BTE ABDUL AZIZ LITTLE SISTER!
She'll be away from me for 1week..
Where to..She's in JAPAN!
I was lucky that i get a chance to see her off..
Thanks to MUHD RAHMAD BIN HAMZAH..
Because of you going faster then the bus i was able to take that bus and reach there 5 min before my sister go..
Both me & my sis almost broke into tears..
Adik be home qiuck!
I got no friends to talk too..
I want to disturb you when you're doing something, laugh with you, eat with you..
Everything with you like we used too..
Our house is so quiet without you..
Okay..i'm making it sound like as if she be gone for a year..

My Monkey! B..
Has finally successfully pass out..
Wehehe..
Went over to Tekong with his mom yesterday...
As usual when i want to snap pictures of him with me he felt shy..
Shy men.. =p
You're not shy when you're only with me..
Calling me names like monkey!
Idiot!!
I video most of the parade..
I swear when i was looking at the video back..
Most of them look like a robot and they look the same..
I was super proud of him when there's this ceremony whereby their parent were suppose to put on their caps on their head..
It just made me feel that..At last one part of your NS is over..
I'm proud of you B!
Haha..
Break fast with his family..
And as usual me & him will always have food fight..
Khekhekhe =p
He'll be bringing me to GEYLANG BAZAAR!
And already made a promise with me on that..
Shall we go on Thursday, Friday Or Saturday??
Sunday is his boys day out..

Wednesday which is today is my girls day out..
Wehehe..
Sorry Kina i was suppose to accompany you but i did not..
Superrr Sorry..

I don't know why I'm so negative now..
I keep thinking that B is hiding something..
I hope you're not hiding anything from me..
It's like you're keeping a secret from me..
Tell me the truth if you already did something wrong..
10 month anni will be held next week..
=)

Life is full of lies..
It's either you are brave to tell the truth and get out from the guilt or you just keep lying and live with the guilt..
I love you..

Jumping all over the place in joy..
I'm done with my attachment..
2weeks break for me now..
Before another attachment start..
Boo Huuu..

I'll be lonely next week cause my lil sis be away to japan..
='(
I'll miss her..

Next Wednesday..
Be meeting my secondary beb's..
Weheheh =)
I like..
Gonna gossip and crap all day long..
Best nyer!!

I miss you..
=)

Busy Busy Busy me..
Been sick again..
Attachment was okay..
Exhausted yes..
Missing the people around me also a yes..
I want to kiss you la!!
Muaks! Muaks!
Don't want to name who is the person..
Secret!
Haha..

XOXOXO