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Wednesday, June 10, 2009Y

No matter how much pain killer i took to overdose myself..
The pain is still there..
No matter how long I close my eyes to forget everything..
It is still stuck at my head..
When everything is suppose to be working out..
It failed yet again..
When I look at those people around me..
I stopped and think are they there when i really need them or they just happen to be there with me to listen to my story..
I know a lot of people..
Talk to them..
But yet I still feel empty now..
I'm trying to add colors to my life but it seems so hard..
You told me i got my friends but none of them are really there..
You should know that my "friends" aren't there most of the time to bother that much about me..
I have to find my way out all time..
I did a lot of mistake and it took me ages to realise it and learn from it..
And by that time i know it's a bit too late..
Seeing you walk out of my life..
I just stood still and watch you go..
I try to reach out for you but you are not turning back anymore..
I know I have to look and be okay..

I really live in a life full of denial..
Take me away as far as possible..
The pain is not going away and it sucks..


heart blue w/ glitter 8:40 PM