My world with my ♥

Thursday, June 25, 2009Y

I LOVE MY FAMILY!

When I look like a makcik kpo..haha

I smell Friday..
Hopefully the plan we had made went smoothly.. =)
<3

1:09 PM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009Y

I am feeling super sad ='(

11:58 AM

Please be back here soon!

I'm miss you so much ='(

I envy other couples now..

Please appreciate your partner before they're gone..

Mmm..

How long am i gonna wait..?

It's driving me NUTSY!

How i wish you can hold my hand now and take me away into your fantasy..

Where there will be just the 2 of us..

Living in a world of our own..

Living happily without disturbance..

As you hold my hand you guide me to places that full of love and joy..

Walking in the long journey with you right beside me and holding my hand made me feel gay and grateful..

No more loneliness in me is found..

Your touch made me feel safe and secure..

When you look me into the eyes, i know there's somthing in you that i can't resist..

Be back right next to me and hold my hand..

I really really miss you..

1:31 AM

Patho-physiology of H1N1

I'M HATING H1 N1 VIRUS ALOT..
GO AWAY,FAR FAR AWAY FROM US CAN??

Thanks to this virus i'm getting lazier to go out from our country due to the procedures..
In addition a lot of people is being quarantine! ergh!
When will this end..
Attachment will be here soon..A few more weeks more..
And if this virus doesn't go away, life is so miserable..
How many more life must this virus take..
I hate seeing people go..
I cried each time i see someone passed away..
I know I'm a nurse and I'm facing all this but i don't want them to die terribly..
It hurts!

Mates, they always inform me last minute for an outing, i know you peeps did message earlier but there's no conformation or anything for the past few days..
I'm not going due to certain reason..
I'm no longer the kind off last min women anymore..
I've learn to priorities the want's and don't now..
Plus, i don't think they're like keeping in touch with me or anything cause they had their own partners? Whatever la

Sorry i didn't attend the meeting had some complication at home..
Hmm..
Meeting will resume on Thursday and Friday right? Can inform me earlier and i can manage my time well..
I'm working and schooling now for goodness sake.. so yarh..

To Casper, there's no secret lover boy okay? Not yet..

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight I know that I've got issues But you're pretty messed up too Either way I found out I'm nothing without you
Because we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
Yeah you got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

12:24 AM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009Y

Eh crazy women..
I miss you lar..Mmm..when she want to back in cck?

I got a brand new bruise today..
So the BLUE AND BLACK!!
Ergh! N my leg is full spot as in scar from the past allergy...
Eee..so disgusting..I want to remove those scars...

I ask for an off day on Friday and they approve it for me..Yeapy!
They had called another girl to replace me and she agreed so yeah!
Mmm..School will be opening in a few days time and so many2 projects..Yucks!
I don't like but i have to get it done anyway..

Friday! just can't wait to see that day coming near me..Wohoo..
Cause..hehe..can't tell you people..My secret =p

I had clear all the mess in my mind today..it makes me feel so much better..
Just need to do my project stuff today a little, the rest tomorrow..
I'm super exhausted and brain dead..
Have not been sleeping well and 7days were spent working with no off!
tsk3!

I see you coming near me now..come baby come..
I want your hug and kisses.. =)

12:41 AM

Monday, June 22, 2009Y

Hello folks..
I haven been having enough sleep over this weekend..
Been busy with work lately..
Saturday, i was suppose to work cause i had to cover Yong Hui as she cannot make it..Whereas Ila is having her OFF..hehe
I was inform the day before by Mar..
I got no plans on weekends anyway so i agreed..
So back to CHARM
Mar had a bad day trust me..
Her bus came late and she had no choice but to open the shop late as the keys were with her..
Later on she was having menses cramp..
Until..there's one moment her phone rang and she receive a super duper bad news..
He mom called her and told her that her grandfather had just passed away..
She broke down and i tried to comfort her..I know there's nothing much i could do
But I tried to make her feel better by buying her chocolates..heee =p
She went home and my manager came down with her sis to replace Mar..
Working with them was fine and it's been months
That i last saw my manager face..LOL!
At the end of the day, I left something behind..My thumbdrive..
Thought of coming down today and collect it back but...

My phone rang in the morning and guess who was giving me the wake up call?
It was Rachel, my Kodak staff..
Rachel " hi morning Syaheda, can you come to work today at 12pm..."
Me" Sorry but who are you"
Rachel"It me Rachel so how can you come down?"
Me" Ermm yar but 12pm is impossible for me..How about 1pm?"
Rachel" Ohh.. Okay see you at 1 then..thanks,bye"

Trust me i was damn sleepy and super lazy to wake up cause i had to work yesterday and today..It's been 7day straight i work! EXHAUSTED!!
And what time Rachel called me, She called at 10plus going 11..
How does she expect me reach at 12!! I stay at cck & i just woke up!
Ergghh..
Force myself to wake up and i look like a zombie..
I hate that look of mine super disgusting..
Came to work and it was pretty busy today..
Weekends..
The incident that i can never forget was a 3year girl came to me holding and pen..
The next question she asked me was..
"Do you have a paper? I want to draw your picture"
I was so surprise that a 3year old girl talk to me that way..
I gave her the paper and she draw on it..
She was there to take her PR photo along with her family..
The whole day i had too cut photo's
But i like today work..
I keep playing with my customer children..
Adorable kids..
I love kids..Hmmm

Latest update..
I'll be up till whee hours cause i need to do my projects..

Wishing upon the stars to see you and hold you again =)

You can choose what you want to believe cause that is the decision you had made and choose to believe...

With every downfall you face, it can only make you to be a stronger person in the future..

I love rainbow cause it contain all the colors i had in life..

1:21 AM

Saturday, June 20, 2009Y

Finally i hear your voice yesterday..
I felt super happy and relief that you're doing fine..
Glad you had made new friends and wish to introduce them to me..
I'll wait till you be back.. =)
You called me when i was working and when i did not picked up you get paranoid and called my sis uh..hurhur..
Cute la..But still i picked up that second call and...
Tada we talked about 10min..
Luckily my other staff is understanding..
Thanks beb =)
Well i'll be working at CHARM today..
Getting ready to work now..
Haha..i know I'm mad having 2 jobs =p

No matter how far you are from me..
You're always kept close to my heart..
I LOVE YOU <3

9:39 AM

Friday, June 19, 2009Y

Work was okay lately..
Been having internal bleeding at my finger area..
All thanks to the passport picture puncture..
Ergh! so hard..
Well my skills in getting the perfect passport photo picture had improve!
Good job to me =) whehehe..

Boys will be boys just can't stop their sweet talks..
I know you want to get my attention but i can only treat you as friend and not more than that...
Sorry..

Need to sleep now..
NIGHTS!!
Muaks =p

Days had passed..
I'm missing you more each day..
Where are you?
I had yet to hear your voice till today..

12:30 AM

Wednesday, June 17, 2009Y

Monday blues!
Haha..not really..
Woke up and did some house chores as usual..
Later went to work..
1st day of work at Kodak vivo..
work was fine..
they taught me how to educate others to print photos using the instant print machine
they told me timing of cleaning the shop and closing and when to switch off the machine..
SAVE THE EARTH! OFF WHEN NOT IN USE =)
there's one particular thing i can't do..
cut of the passport photos using the passport cutter..
oh god it's bloody hard..

And yar on this day..my knee was dislocated again..but luckily it went back to it place..
It's swollen now..
I can barely climb the stairs properly now.. ergh!

Tuesday
Group meeting..
I was super late..i'm sorry
We really discuss alot of issue..
That it took 4hr plus..
That was our longest group project meeting..hehe
My tummy was grumbling and i went off at 4pm cause i need to work later on.
Ate mac with mariam..thanks beb for keeping me accompany..
Off to work and do the same thing i did..
There's this malay uncle came to my shop and ask me to assist him and i did..
he was smiling at me like as if i had brighten up his day..
He told me that he was happy that they hired a staff like me whom look so cheerful and smiling at customer..
Whereby the other staff only show a mono face..hee
Uncle my senior hardly smile at others.. but the smile at me..
They are nice seniors =)

I'm counting down the days to see you again..
I'm infectious now..
Down with minor flu and cough..

1:04 PM

Sunday, June 14, 2009Y

I miss my hunney bunny alots..
I spent my weekends with my friends and family..

Saturday..
I went out with malah,dian and jasmin..
We head to beach road to have tulang and at the same time they want to buy bus ticket to Malacca..
I want to go but mom don't allow.. ='(
After they bought the ticket's dian went to meet his boyfriend..
Malah, Jasmin and me..
Catch drag me to hell at ermm..the new shopping center at bugis? was is it called?
Hee..well that's the place..
Me and malah kept screaming cause there were a lot of shocking scenes
At city hall, jasmin went to meet her aunt..
Mal met up with her bf..
And we hang out at esplanade,eating ice-cream and take pictures..
Went home at 9.30 =)

Sunday
I had a good night sleep yesterday..
It feels so wonderful..
Went out with mom and my lil sis today..
We went Jurong point and mom bought me new mascara..
Weehee =)
Had black pepper hotplate..
So pedas..Yeeee...don't like =(
Shop for mom new outfit cause she really need something nice to wear..
I'm happy that i finally spent time with mom..
We went home and we did our house chores as usual..
Now here i am blogging..

No matter how bad your day was..
Always give leave a smile at the end of the day..
As tomorrow will be new and better day for you..

I love the clear blue sky in this picture..
It make feel so calm..

9:54 PM

Friday, June 12, 2009Y

I saw my holidays coming now..
But not much different anyway..
I got tonnes of presentation to be done..Ergh!!
I so wanna go to the beach..
And nobody to date me out =(
Well i don't have any idea on how i want to spent my weekend this time..
Boring!
Love =)

8:21 PM

Wednesday, June 10, 2009Y

No matter how much pain killer i took to overdose myself..
The pain is still there..
No matter how long I close my eyes to forget everything..
It is still stuck at my head..
When everything is suppose to be working out..
It failed yet again..
When I look at those people around me..
I stopped and think are they there when i really need them or they just happen to be there with me to listen to my story..
I know a lot of people..
Talk to them..
But yet I still feel empty now..
I'm trying to add colors to my life but it seems so hard..
You told me i got my friends but none of them are really there..
You should know that my "friends" aren't there most of the time to bother that much about me..
I have to find my way out all time..
I did a lot of mistake and it took me ages to realise it and learn from it..
And by that time i know it's a bit too late..
Seeing you walk out of my life..
I just stood still and watch you go..
I try to reach out for you but you are not turning back anymore..
I know I have to look and be okay..

I really live in a life full of denial..
Take me away as far as possible..
The pain is not going away and it sucks..

8:40 PM

I will always miss you..
You might not be the prefect guy but the pleasant memories you gave me will always be kept..
Thank you

12:49 AM

Tuesday, June 9, 2009Y

Hello people..
Well how do i spent my weekends this time..
I got back my old job and therefore I'm back to working part time for now..
It was exhausting but fun tho cause it's been donkey months since i last work..
My working life..as usual guys will enter the shop and ask for no.
LOL!!
If they don't want to buy shoe's from me to push my sales no numbers will be given..Hahaha..
I didn't give out my number giving an excuse that i'm attach..haha..
So yarh..
Here are some pictures i took while and after work..
Enjoy looking at it..haha =)
PS: I LOVE THAT RED HEELS!!! =)

12:21 AM

Saturday, June 6, 2009Y

The Purest Of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there is something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me i feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Vida, give me back my fantasies,
The courage that I need to live
The air that I Breathe
Carino mio, my worlds become so empty
My day's are so cold and lonely,
and each night I taste
The purest of Pain

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
That it didn't hurt me when you walked away
But to tell you the truth I can't find my way
And deep inside me I feel like I'm dying

http://www.imeem.com/people/tteehc/music/ZqJCwVBB/son-by-four-purest-of-pain/

12:35 AM

Friday, June 5, 2009Y

Finally i catch night at the museum 2..
Well i didn't get a chance to watch it at the movie cause nobody wants to bring me there..
So i just catch it online..
Good Movie..I LIKE!

It's good to hear that my friends are happy for me..
As I'm progressing in terms of school stuff like exams and etc..
And I've got a chance to work again..
Yeapy!

Was asleep like a log yesterday and mom was so sweet..
She was telling my friends whom had called me tru my house phone that I'm asleep and don't want to be disturb..

Had meeting in school earlier on just now..
About pharmacology ICA..
We'll be presenting next week and i want to make sure i know how to talk and to understand the topic well..(glucoma)
My role is to do a video and be the nurse on how to educate the patient the proper method of administering his medication..
Also to talk more about my ICA question.. =)

I had clean my room and my house chores duties already..
Didn't want my mom to continue nagging..haha
Noisy la when she nag..
Plus there's another new noise pollution here at my house..
My neighbour house it under renovation!!
Eeee..Grrr.. NOISE NOISE NOISE!!
SHUT UP!!

Am good term with cas..
Hopefully everything will be fine..
If we're meant for each other..
I guess it's him whom should make the move..
A man after all

Our lives is an adventure of a lifetime..
It's contains of how much obstacles you face and memories you had..
Be it good or bad..

Ice-cream,chocolates please come to me!
Mm mm..
Craving for it =p

ICE-CREAM!!

HEAVENLY DELICIOUS CHOCOLATES!!

5:26 PM

Thursday, June 4, 2009Y

It's over now..
I have one day to enjoy and the next i have to continue stressing myself again for exams..
Good job to me..
I manage to pass all my exams this week..
Phew..what a relief..
Except for the bloody migraine part..ergh!

I keep telling myself everything will be just fine..
And i really hope everything will be okay..
Am exhausted..
Due to the bad migraine i can't sleep the whole night and just cry and cry..
Been having sleepless night due to all this..

I'm getting my rest later after i settle my psychology..
Hopefully i get it done as quickly as possible =)

Consider defeat is not a right way to overcome the problems..
Fighting it will be better as you learn to be someone better..

8:04 PM

Wednesday, June 3, 2009Y

Dear god..
Please make me to be a strong women..
Please keep wan away from me..
I don't want him to find me or contact me..
He hurt me yesterday and today..
Please go away..

I'm glad my previous company called me up and ask me to work over the weekends..
I know i'll be damn exhausted and it's difficult to juggle my school and work..
But i'll try..
I need money..Cause someone had took all my money away..

How many scar's is he gonna leave me..
Putting a strong front..
Yes Cas i'm living in world of denial..
Nothing much i can do..
All i want is to make it be back to normal..

When others pass tru me..
I saw my past..
Hoping that they'll be taking my ugly past away with them..

10:51 PM

Tuesday, June 2, 2009Y

Men are such a nusiance!
He keep asking me to give him money..
Keep ranking about the past about when we went out and use his money or events when he told me to keep aside his money and i accidentally use..
But when i use his money ,i told him..
Now the past is still there as he's here still asking for all the money back as his not working..
He told me his going NS soon and now got alot of things to settle such as..blah3!
I'm broke get it!
I've given what i have in my purse damn you..
I'm shit jobless and penniless plus i got my own problem to settle too!
God! here i am trying to shade my past away to be better yet it still came back..
All thanks to you
FUCK YOU!

Going to find a proper part time job tomorrow..
I 'm so gonna work hard and have my own money again..

Fucking and bloody pissed with men!!
Ps: I know i'm being too vulgar nowadays.. I'm so sorry but just bear with it for now!

11:09 PM

MY BLOODY BRAIN IS BURSTING!!

Here am i in school blogging..
My brain can't seem to be functioning well..
Been pushing as much content in one after another..
It's damn bloody toast =(

I passed my practical exam yesterday..
One down..
It's was my first time passing it well..
Today is another round of gamble..
I can't seem to be remembering anything much already..
Been pushing myself to hard..

Suffering from a bad headache now..

I can't be bother with other stuff for now..
Just wanna study and study..

To somebody..
Let me tell you something..
I can't be bother with your shit..
You can continue be in tagged board for as long as you want..

Life is unpredictable so don't ever think that what you say or planned might go accordingly.. Nothing you say can be bring down! Try harder!
It's after 6 now.. I passed the exam but did not did that well.. I skipped my lecture cause i can't take it anymore! Trust me my attendance is damn horrible now.. Just have to make sure it above 85%..Ergh!

I just cut my finch recently..
I don't know what's wrong with me that i feel like doing something so different..
In fact most of gf are doing stupid and different2 stuff you know..
I guess we're all just too stress up already..Haiz..
Year 2 nursing it tough..

Most of them seems to be having problems with the opposite attracts..
Like wth!
Okay..
Uploading pic's now =)

2:07 PM

Monday, June 1, 2009Y

I'm such a sleeping queen..
Been sleeping the whole day..
I'm so exhausted i guess..
That really explain why i spent my time sleeping the entire time on Sunday..hehe

Exams today and i just woke up to study again..
Be burning midnight oil again later anyway..
Might be studying with dayah somewhere at my area later at night..
As i had kind off promise her to study with her..
She message me yesterday night but i was already fast asleep and my sister is the one replying her messages..

Cook breakfast for mom and me..
I know my mom will make breakfast for me somehow everyday but since I'm up early at 5am why not i make breakfast for her instead..
I LOVE YOU MOM!
Mom had been giving me encouragement for my practical exams today..
But seriously i think i can end up crying in my exams room again..Hmm..

I've been watching all these weddings movie and hear people talking about their weddings or future plan etc..
I wonder will my turn ever come? haha
Well leading a life like this i' mean the one I'm having now..
Can me lead nowhere to that stage yet..
It's nice to hear when your very own friend is getting married..
Attending their ceremony is another..
When you see them on their own wedding gown you'll just sit back on your chair and smile..
Somehow it make me happy to see other people smiling and happy..

My dearest cousin is having a 4month baby now in her tummy..
Well another 5 more month and I'm an aunt..haha..
So weird.i can't believe i can be an aunt soon..
I'm too young to be an aunt..=)

My aunt recently told me that my cousin will be getting engaged at the end of this year..
She had start preparing now and she must be pretty busy..
Can't wait till her day come too..=)

I've learn to be someone that will only want and share happiness with others..
Cause it makes me happy too =)

I step my feet into the sand to leave my footprints but after the wind had blown, the footprint is no longer visible to be seen..

5:24 AM