This totally sucks..
What did i do till he don't wanna talk to me..
I totally don't understand..He no longer wanna met me..All he want is spent time with his friends..Okay then if that makes you happy and then i'll allow..
I'll give you your space cause i know you want's it badly..
Let me see what kind of friends are you gonna meet?
Hmm...
This whole thing make me feels so lost..Didn't know what actually happen that i get this treatment..
oh well..
That's life i guess..
Just hope he'll cool down soon..

I guess this is month or season whereby everyone seems to be broke like real broke..
Pity him..he got to help me out financially and also settle 3 bills including the bills that his x use..
i shall not be demanding..
i'll just spent what ever i have and try to save it well..
like what others always told me can you stop splurging..
hehe
okay..
i'll stop splurging money..
my money supply from mom is totally cut off..not a single cent was received from her..
hmph!
well what did i do for today..
nothing much actually, just lazing around at home and went out to lot1 for a while to have dinner..
well that's about it for today..

It's seems that my beb's are having problems with their boyfriends now..
one just broke up recently and the other just had a quarrel..
What is love to you?
Is it a complicated word or it's just nice a start and sour after a while?
what is the recipe for it?
trust?
care?
love?
understand each other?
giving in?
wealth?
looks?
hmmm..

weheehehehe.. i finally went out with my wonderful beb's..so happy.. we ate at food culture and we had korean food and my ban mian..yummy!
we talk alot as it's been so long since we met each other..
done with it we cam whore in the toilet..omg everyone eyes were on us..haha
Next we headed to jurong east as kina wanted to pass her customer shirt..well online shopping seems pretty fun..wohoo..
the upcoming station was admiralty..they keep me accompanied for about 1 hr plus as wan have not yet open his eyes(wake up) haha..
we went to pasar malam and we loiter there..cool and fun..
we had keropok lekor..we share it among ourself..
it was then they had to go as they are going to live and loaded..
i waited for him about 10 min as he's supposed to fetch me at admiralty shop and save..
went to mac to check his wokring schedule..haha..we got confuse at first so sotong!
at night after daya end her live and loaded event chamender me and wan went to fetch her..
we went changi to see bapok and ate ayam penyek..they steal my chicken..no fair=(
after that we went all over spore..
and home sweet home..
here's my beb's foto's =)

After a talk with my cousin about my attitude and stuff..
I guess i agree with everyone that i had too much bad changes in me..
Well let's just say I'll be the old me..
The pure laziness girl around..
When i keep that title nobody actually bother me that much..seriously..
Cause they know i can't be bothered and my don't be bothered attitude keep me out of trouble somehow..
Hehe=)
Am suppose to meet him today..And honestly this is the first time i'm gonna say I'm super duper lazy to meet him..Maybe after much reflection and my mess clearing session i realize that i should cut my time with him..Way too much spending time..haha..
New promise made by me now is try to stick around at home most of the time plus sleep sleep sleep when nothing to do..haha..=)
Also save as much money as I can..I wanna be a rich kid..Haha..
Gonna meet dayah Soon..update more later =p

Had a tiff with Wan about Cas sms..i swear to god he'll never ever allow me to keep in contact with Cas even if i say me and Cas were only friends now..
I know he's worried that the flame of love is still there..Hmm..
But oh well after explaining much to him And he threaten me too find a new chicks and stuff..(which i hate it when he say that,so the typical mat's motor.so angry!)

Somehow I'm happy that I had told him the truth that yes me and Cas is still contacting as we're friends..still that is not acceptable to him..so no more contact? Errr..
But after the truth is spoke he get agitate and pissed..Oh well at least i admit..right??
Now we're are back to normal sequence again..Gosh i can really quarrel with him almost everyday..sounds so dupe right?
Esh..

Tomorrow so gonna go job haunting! =)
And meeting Dayah for food!! yum2

Kina thanks beb for helping me with my blog she really put in effort to help me make my blog look nice..hearts you beb =)
OKAY LA THAT"S ALL LA..haha
Here a photo of me..
I look chubby and fat here..
hmmm

"Right Here (Departed)"

When you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the breaks starting,
When the clouds are far departed,
You'll be right here with me,

B rock...
Darkchild..
We back..
You'll be right here with me

You'll be right here with me
oh, oh
You'll be right here with me

When your life is going to fast,
off the train tracks
I can slow it down, oh
just when you think your bout to turn back
scared you might crash
I'll be your ground, oh

Oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the brakes started,
And when the clouds above Departed,
You'll be right here with me,
And when your tears are dry from crying,
And when the worlds turned silent,
So when the clouds above Departed,
You will be right here with me,
Oh oh

I will be right here with you
you'll be right here with me

When your trapped and there's just no key,
And you can't breathe,
I breathe for you,
The fire's got you down on both knees,
And the walls are closing in but I will,
Break it through,
And when you feel alone,
I'm a be at home,
Whenevers comes and go,
You know I got you,

Oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
And when you see the brakes started,
And when the clouds above Departed,
You'll be right here with me,
(You'll see the sun)
And when your tears are dry from crying, crying,
And when the worlds turned silent...silent,
So when the clouds above Departed,
You will be right here with me,

I will be here right beside you,
Every step you take (yea),
I will be your strength your shelter,
Shield you from the rain,

(oh when you feel),
oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
and when you see the brakes started,
and when the clouds above Departed,
you'll be right here with me (right here),
and when your tears are dry from crying,
and when the worlds turned silent,
so when the clouds above Departed,
you will be right here with me,

I will be right here with you,
You'll be right here with me,

I guess i had enough of screwing things up..
I don't mean to hurt anyone..
It's my own self to be blame and only me..
I don't want other to get involve..
I'll clear my own mess slowly..
It's time for me to be me and make my own stand again..
It's enough of being push all over the place..
I'm sick and tired of it..
To all my ladies be strong
Sya

"Mad"

Oooo oooo oooo
Oooo oooo ummm

She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking
Ummm Nobody's talking, cause' talking just turns into screaming (Oooo)
And now yes I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me,
all that that means is neither of us are listening,
and what's even worse, that we don't even remember why we're fighting

So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing, (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing, (come back for)
nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know some times it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed, mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Umm
and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing
(asking questions like you already know)
hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing
(this ain't the way that love is supposed to go, whatever happened to working it out?)
We fall into this place where you ain't backing down, and I ain't backing down,
so what the hell do we do now?

So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing... (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing,
nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know some times it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Oh baby this love ain't gone be perfect, (perfect perfect oh no)
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight long as everything is alright between us before we go to sleep...

Baby we're gonna be...

Yah.... Baby....

ohhhh....ohhhh

I know some times it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo, nooo, noo)